My second go at life // Orsted x oc (Mushoku Tensei)

Chapter 42

"Come on." Rudeus pulled me by my hand to distract me from my worry over Eris, and we saw Ghislaine crossing off names on a giant board. "What is that?"

"The list of the missing." She answered.

There were an overwhelming number of names, but I found Zenith's quickly and pointed it out to Rudeus making him frown. "Missing, but not dead." I let out.

"Sylphie?! It can't be!" Rudeus yelled making me panic seeing her name crossed out.

"Did you check the list of the dead?" Ghislaine asked, and I checked it finding nothing. I kept checking, and I finally sighed in relief as tears fell down my face.

"I feel horrible...Eris lost so much, but I'm so happy Sylp-" I paused.

"It's okay." Ghislaine patted my head. "There's sometimes nothing you can do for people, but I know you must have done a lot for her already."

"What about Ted?! What's his whole name?!" Rudeus went to check again.

"Oh, I already found him." I reassured Rudeus.

"You did?! When did you meet him?!" Rudeus freaked out.

"...A while ago." I answered as I stared at the sky confusing Ghislaine as to what I'm staring at. Rudeus questioned me for a better explanation, but I ran away since I can't explain it well or at all.

"Ceres!" Rudeus yelled stunned that I ran away.

"Yeah, it's the guy that practically murdered you...I can't say that...Ted got triggered? That's even worse, he's like a brown bear...people normally scream at those, so I guess he is." I rambled to myself then walked into a tree. "...I should go back."

Rudeus and I were given separate rooms for the night and I didn't stay in mine... I went out immediately to go look for that field. Ghislaine saw me and grinned seeing I was still up and about not just suffering on my own in that quiet tent.

It's all white so it reminds me too much of that hospital room.

I did find the place and it was so far much farther than I thought it originally was. "I guess the excitement always made the time go quick..." I mumbled.

I landed there to find most of the area is dead, but I was so stunned to see one thing that took the attention off from everything else.

"It's...it's alive!" I yelled seeing the cheery blossom tree blooming with life, it was the one Orsted tried to give me then he replanted it since I was sad it was going to die. "Something survived."

I cried a little and found it utterly stupid that I was so happy a tree is alive and I put my head against its trunk. "Why am I here?" I asked myself. "Why is this the only place I can sleep in?"

I was so relaxed now and decided it was fine to sleep here for the night. "This is a home, isn't it?" I mumbled as I lay on my side under the tree and had my coat cover me as a blanket. "I'm home..."

I grinned as I slowly fell asleep under the tree.

When I woke up I don't know why but I felt disappointed that I was alone. I made my way back to the camp to find Rudeus weirdly happy, well I'm glad he's happy at least.

'Good morning, everyone! What a wonderful morning it is! What are you looking so glum for?' Rudeus thought as he looked at a depressed man that was probably depressed for a very good reason. 'Go get some experience too! It will put a smile on your face!'

"Rude!" I yelled and he nervously smiled seeing my worried look.

'Yeah, I'm getting bad again, I should calm down...Now excuse me. I have got plans with my girlfriend.' Rudeus yelled in his mind then ran back into his tent. 'Wake up, or I will have fun with you! Oh? She isn't there! I get it she must be embarrassed silly gi-'