CHAPTER 4

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CHOWDHURY AND BHAGWANI

𝙷𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚔𝚊

Nishi took me upstairs, holding my hand. Something was wrong. I felt it in my guts that something was incredibly wrong. Nishi's hands were shaking a little as we reached my room. She closed the door behind me and we sat on my bed.

She took few deep breaths. I was confused why was she so nervous?. "You don't know who he was?" Nishi asked. I shook my head in a no. Her eyes held the emotions of confusion and shock.

"You really don't remember--" as she was about to complete what she had to. The door flew open to Nani in the room. Holding a glass of water. She gave it to me to drink. She had a poker face on. As her emotions and facial features were unable to be read. The atmosphere felt heavy. 

"Hansi, Can you go downstairs and find my glasses. I lost them. And my legs ache a little after I climbed the stairs to your room." Nani smiled. I don't know what was happening. All I knew was Nani was hiding something important from me. To protect me or cage me?

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"Were you about to-" Nani held eye contact with my nervous ones. I always respected Nani it was rare that i saw her in this state. I am afraid that I did something i shouldn't have. I played with my dupatta. As I looked down on my payals, that adorned my feet.

"Nishi, Please refrain yourself from reminding Hansi about the event that occurred. I don't want her to go into that state again. I am absolutely terrified if something happens to her again."

I fiddled with my dupatta even more, I made an almost grave mistake of telling  about him. I forgot and became care free. I apologized to Nani about my almost made mistake. She hugged me and comforted me, When suddenly, Hansi entered the room.

"WITHOUT ME!??" She shouted and waddled towards me and nani. Hugging us tight and we both could feel the warmth of her body. She held Nani's glasses in her hand which I could feel on my shoulder's as she hugged me and Nani.

"Chalo ekshate shopping kari". She said to me with literal sparkles. She was my favorite, however I cannot too lose her like that one time. I smiled towards her warmly.

'I always hope you keep smiling Hansu'

𝙷𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚔𝚊

we were in South City Mall, enjoying the mall's cool air and seeing the stores. Now we were in one cloth section checking out clothes. While Nishi was checking out the pretty floral tees. I had wandered to another side. I accidently had entered the male's section. 

'Eh, I can see some for Nanu.'  I thought. I kept the strand of hair behind my ear that was mingling in my work. I checked few tees. When my eyes fell on a black tee; kept smoothly on the shelve. I don't know how my mind travelled to what happened in the morning. And I was imagining him in the tee. I felt my cheeks heat up as my fingers traced the tee and my thoughts wondered to how I feel like I know the guy.  He feels so cozily close to my heart. As if we have shared secrets and wonderful memories together. As i am tracing the buttons of the tee. The tee was taken from the shelve. Shattering my daydream.

As my eyes followed the hand that held the tee. I looked and he was already looking at me. My breath hitched. 'Oh boy..'

"Shouldn't you be in female's section?" He raised an eyebrow. I bit my lip trying to form an answer. But why was i even nervous?. Can't girl's be in the male's section.

"Why? Can't i be in a male section?" I folded my arms up in front my chest. As if i have any.

He took a quick look. It was an up and down type of look. And looked at the shirt as he unfolded it and and started checking himself out from a nearby mirror.  He definitely checked me out. But I am shameless, I am going to check him out openly.

I stare at him. "I like it, but it will be a tight fit." I looked at his chest. 'He definitely puts in the work.'  I thought while i still kept looking at him. Until, he kept the open tee in front of his chest.

I was about to retaliate till i realized what i was doing. "You...Stop looking at my chest." He said as he wiggles his eyebrow. Now he knows how to feels to be female everyday. But oh well.

"I wasn't. I was just checking if it is going to fit or not." I shrugged as i pretended to look at other tees.

"Admit it. I know i am handsome." He chuckled. Oh

"Arrogant much." I spoke looking at him as my lips pouted at his expression. He looked pleased. And pleasant. 

He chuckled and passed by me. My eyes took a  glance in the basket which he was carrying  with him. that I never took notice of earlier. My mouth opened slowly as i mentally face palmed as well as hit myself mentally. I never realized Nishi had caught up to me from behind. As my eyes travelled towards him; as he was leaving. 

"He's married...." I muttered softly. The basket was filled with little boy's clothes and toys and coloring books. Along with water bottle, bag, etc. I felt my heart fall from a high  place like a mischievous cat pushed a ceramic cup from the high shelve. Shattering and making a noise. Hope no one heard my heart break. Right now i felt so disappointed and disgusted at my self. 

"Who's married?" Nishi chirped from behind. I flinched a little as i turn back to face her but she didn't notice. 

"Nishi....I am a piece of trash." I said. Putting my hand on her shoulder. 

"Why? What?" she was confused. "Why all hot men are taken?" I sighed. Ek hi crush hone wala tha woh bhi phoos hogaya.

"Ki Holo?" She tilted her head in question. 

"Nothing". She is too innocent. How does she survive?

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Song of the chapter.

"Ye ishq Hai"

देखो ना देखो

मुझे क्या हुआ है तेरी यादों में खो कर

पूछो ना पूछो

मुझे क्या हुआ है तेरी बातों में जी कर

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