crazy what u do for a friend

time to go - last part

third person*
The 5 of them walked out of lucy's room and sat on the sofa all of their faces in pure shock on what there friends going through. "did u hear what she said they put what we send on repeat while she was." angela stoped herself swallowing back her tears. "no wonder she doesn't trust us." nyla said her hands covering her face. "i don't think it's that she's mentally and physically exhausted u saw how hard that was for her just to even talk about it she needs time." grey said his voice firm but worried. "i don't want her to be alone again,maybe if she's up for it we could see everyone tomorrow." zoe suggested. "let's just see what lucy does. everyone copes in different ways." tim said his eyes looking at lucy's closed door.
lucy pov*
i lay on my back.the imagines of everything pounding in my head, a constant loop and before i new it i was holding the one thing that could take my pain away even for a split second slicing into my higher thigh again and again. i watch as a trail of blood drips down my leg the sensation almost comforting as the pain slowly fades away but it didn't help. not at all. The thoughts were still there but this time there was guilt added onto it. i had been clean for such a long time. I few sobs escape my mouth as i go to grab the bandages in my pocket and rap my cuts i grab my joggers and a hoodie i need to clear my head.
with the others. third person*
"can u hear that." angela says her looking instantly changing into a worried one. "she's crying." grey said his head in his hands. "did we push her to far,to early?" zoe questioned guilt in her voice but before anyone replied they heard a door open to see lucy in a hoodie and joggers. her eyes puffy and her bags dark. her bruises now so much more noticeable as she headed towards the door. "where are u going lucy." nyla said speaker for herself and the group. "i need to clear my head." lucy said her voice as firm as could be. "lucy we can't let u go alone you know that." grey smiled standing up. Lucy just stood there no
emotion, no nothing. "lucy." grey repeated walking towards her. "i'm fine grey please i just need to clear my head i will have my phone on me the whole time." lucy said letting out a small smile,but when grey looked into lucy's eyes he didn't see the spark that was always there all he saw was pain. "okay,be back soon." Lucy let out a small nod and smiled at everyone. They came over and gave her a hug. "i love u all." she said before leaving if only they knew that was the last time they would see her.