I don't get it. I don't get why I'm both mad and sort of glad(?) that he abandoned me.
I'm mad because when he was struggling a while back, I was there for him no matter what through all of it, even when he would reject my help. But when I was at my worst he threw me away.
But then again, I wrecked it by continuously rejecting his help and never getting better.
I'm glad he came to his senses and left me but then again I want him back so bad it hurts.
I don't know what to do anymore.
