Complicated

Chapter 19

Alex's pov:

There he was.

"Nate what are you doing here?"I asked looking at him.

"You said if I ever sent anyone to check up on you you'd slap me. Well I didn't send anyone this time. It's me."he replied walking in and closing the door.

I have him a state. He turned around. He arched his brow. I kept staring. But instead of staring me down he put his hand on my cheek. He grabbed me and pulled me close to him. He was hugging me like he was going to never see me again.

This wasn't how our stare downs happened. I just stood their. He held me for what seemed like forever. He finally let go and looked into my eyes. He looks at me like he was trying to find something. I just took a drink from my bottle and walked past him.

Nate's pov:

I grabbed her and hugged her. She didn't hug me back. I let go and looked into her eyes. Her face was still her face her eyes were still her eyes but she wasn't the same. She looked at me and took a drink from the bottle and walked past me. And it hurt.

I turned around and saw her in the couch. She was numb. I should have been here the same day it all happened.

What kind of best friend was I? I saw her just sitting there. She was completely and utterly numb. It looked as if every emotion was drained out of her.

"So how I'm how's it been going?"I asked sitting down. She looked at me.

"Great."she replied taking another drink.

"Lex you can tell me anything. I'm your best friend."I replied looking at her. She groaned.

"Look Nate I appreciate the support or whatever but I don't need you or anyone okay."she replied looking at me harshly. Well that hurt.

I stood up I couldn't. I couldn't be Johnson. I wasn't like him. He was calm and patient. I wasn't I'm blunt no joke no focus. I get to the point I use tough love. And that's what she needs.

She doesn't need time. She needs to feel. And I know exactly how to make her feel. Even if it hurts me to see her hurt.

"Get up."I replied.

"What?"she asked.

"You heard me. Or what are you deaf now too?"I asked looking at her.

"Fine."she replied getting up. I grabbed the bottle.

"Hey what the fuck?!"she yelled out. I pushed her to the wall.

"Alex I need you. Okay I need you to feel. You can't stay numb."I replied looking at her she smiled.

"Aww. What's wrong Nate? Can't handle seeing your precious little girl have no feelings? Huh? You can't stand the fact that I'm like this. And why? Because if you would have gotten out of that car you might have fixed it before it got to this. And you blame your self. But guess what? It's not your fault."she replied. That's it I have to do it.

"Oh yeah and why do you want to stay numb? Huh. Do you want to forget how Jack made you feel? How whenever you were with him he made you feel something? How he made you feel special? How he made your heart race with one touch? Or how you felt butterflies in your stomach when he did something nice?"I asked looking at her. She was breaking I could tell. Her eyes went from nothing to sadness. It was working but k didn't know if I could take seeing her like this. And the next thing I was going to say would be what drives her off the cliff. I braced myself and opened my mouth.

"Or was it the fact that everything he said was a lie? That he never loved you? The fact that you felt completely stupid when he said what he said in the car? In front of me , Sam and Johnson. Or is it the fact that he only said I love you to get you into bed?"I said and that was it when the last words came out of my mouth she cracked. She fell to the ground and cried. I sighed. I fell to the floor and looked at her.

"Nate I-i."she replied.

"Shh."I replied and hugged her. I picked her up and put her on the couch. She was hugging me and crying. I felt a coupe of tears leave my eyes. I wiped them away. It wasn't because I was sad. They were tears of happiness. I want happy I made her cry. I was happy that she had emotion again. Even if it was sadness.

After a couple of hours she finally stopped crying. I had actually cried myself. She pulled back and looked at me.

"Thank you."she replied and I nodded. Later I helped her shower. And normally I would have said something but I didn't. And she had a bathing suite on so she wasn't completely naked. After she changed into her pajamas. I asked her if she had eaten since she looked really skinny. Skinnier than before.

She said no. She said she hadn't eaten in a long time. All she did was smoke and drink. That made my heart break. I made her something to eat.

Then we went back into her room and I brushed her hair. It sounds girly but I did it. The whole time she didn't speak. She finally got in her bed. I wS about to leave when she spoke.

"Nate can you stay with me?"she asked looking at me. I nodded. I took off my shirt and laid down with her. She wrapped her arms around me like I was going to disappear. I hugged her back and she fell asleep. I let go of her when I heard my phone ring.

Shit. I grabbed it and got up. I answered it and looked at Alex hoping she hadn't woken up. She hadn't she as still asleep. I looked at her and wondered if this was her first goodnight sleep in a long time.

"Hello?"I heard someone say.

"Oh shit hi."I replied.

"Well what ever you were doing has your attention."Sam replied. I rolled my eyes.

"Shut up Sam."I said walking towards the living room.

"Okay okay. But seriously though how how is she?"he asked serious now. I knew that Sam blamed himself for what happened. He went on for a week. Saying how if he hadn't turned them Alex and Jack would be fine. I felt bad.

"She's ugh. She's okay I guess. I mean she was really really not okay earlier. She was completely emotional less. It was the worst thing ever. And I had to um I had to say something's."I replied scratching my neck.

"What did you say?"he asked.

"I said that um if she felt bad when Jack embarrassed her in front of us or was it even worse when she found out he didn't love her. And that he just used that to get her into bed." I replied.

"Wow."he said after a while.

"Yeah it broke my heart believe me but I had too. I didn't want to but I had too. And she broke. The last thing that I said finally drove her off the cliff and she cried for what seemed like forever. But I didn't mind. And I even cried a little. But she's sleeping now. And I fed her. She looks skinnier than usual. She looks so under fed. Which reminds me tomorrow your watching her. And then it's Johnson."I replied.

"Okay so it me than Johnson and then what you again?"he asked.

"Yeah well take turns until she gets better. Until both of them get better."I replied.

"Yeah."he sighed.

"How's Johnson?"I asked.

"Well I told him to go to sleep. I mean that boy needs it."he replied.

"Agreed. Okay well I'll call you tomorrow I think I heard her move."I said.

"Okay."he replied and I hung up. I got back to her room and saw her open her eyes.

"Hey."I said weakly.

"Hey."she replied with a sleepy smile. I walked over to her and laid down. I got under the covers and hugged her. She fell asleep after a few minutes and then I fell asleep.