coffee and cigarettes [winnysatang]

"perfect" figure.

saint ryan, a figure that everyone known as a perfect figure with no flaws. saint come from influential family, most respected and rich but saint turned his back from his family since 5 years ago.

he had enough of his family's bullshits and decided to leave them and change his last name to ryan. he work hard carrying his own life by his own hands and legs until he managed to step his feet where he is right now. probably he doesn't have the life as he had before but for now is better than ever.

saint is now a lecturer that teach psychology, he also well known for being an excellent teacher who never leaving his students behind.

he leave his family behind because at first his father want to make him as the next head director of their company business and he accepted it. but it's getting more worse and worse and he can't even catch up the things his dad wants him to do.

flashback

"i want you to marry one of my friend's daughter"

saint sigh then stand up from his sit and glare to his father in annoyed.

"i don't want to"

"oh young man i don't care"

saint clicked his tounge then slam the table,

"look motherfucker ! i had enough ! listen carefully, your son is gay ! i am gay ! i like boys !"

his dad laugh then stand up and slammed the table make everyone in the room jumped by the loud sound.

"what the fuck are you babbling about ? you ? gay ? nonsense ! none of my bloodline were gay and that's include you !"

"yeah right, then i will not be your bloodline. what so hard about it ? just change my last name then we are over"

saint said as he throw some documents on the table. his father took it one by one and read them carefully, he was shocked by the fact wrote on it.

"you change you fucking last name ?! how dare you ! you are my son ! i have every right on you ! change it bavk before it's too late"

saint laugh and sit back down.

"it is too late dad and i plan to move out from this hell, i planned to move out next month but guess the plan has changed"

"saint ! saint astor get you fucking ass here back now !"

"wrong khun astor, my name is saint ryan please said it properly. i got through a lot to get that name and now please excuse me"

his dad rushed to him and pull his arm roughly make him hissing in pain.

"you can't go away from me saint, you are my on—"

"your only bloodline, real bloodline. i know that, phi nay and nong alyn are not your real children. for fucking sake i know that"

saint pulling his arm back from his father's grip and walk away to his room to pick up all his things. when he walk away to his front gate of the big mansion, his dad said,

"you will come back to me saint, i swear you will. maybe not now or nothing near but you will. why ? because your life is mine"

saint holding his anger and walk out from the house and putting all his stuffs into a car that he bought it by his own efforts and money then drive away.

"i will never back to that hell, if i ever back to that hell, i must be losing my mind"

he said as he drive away with tears of anger beaming in his eyes, all his face and neck veins popped out and his grip onto the steering wheel.

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at first, he find everything kind of hard to do it all by himself. starting by being an assistant of one psychiatrist at one hospital was actually a really good start. he learned everything from there and practice it into real life.

from assisting to being psychiatrists himself, getting awards and appreciation from time to time. he slowly became more and more successful in his career but then his father found out and started to mess around with him.

he decided toned down his life by staying lay low for a few months then come back to become a psychology professor at one university.

he choose a university that a bit far from the hectic city, he choose that university so his father will have some hard time to get to him. if his father found out where he is again, he will think about it later, for now he want to started a new life as saint ryan, a psychology professor.

"if anything happens just let me know, we still a family saint even though you change your name"

"you change yours too"

"i am married you idiot ! ughhh but anyways remember to always stay in touch with me okay ?"

"hahaha don't worry fernan, i am an adult. i can handle things on my own just fine"

fernan just sigh and foldes his arms to his chest.

"right, when will george be back ?"

"he will be back tomorrow morning, don't worry we still go to help you setting your stuffs and assets to your new house"

"if he is too tired just don't, i don't want to burden you both even more. me living with you two already give so much trouble with my dad's behavior, i am truly sorry"

fernan laugh then slowly rubs saint's shoulders and smile.

"guess the even 'perfect figure' has their own flaws too right ? it's okay saint, you are human too. you have your own reason for your own doing, it's may be unreasonable for others but what is important is your opinion in your own doing. we are human saint we got flaws and we do wrong so just keep your head up and face it then you will be fine"

fernan said to saint with his wide smile. fernan norish is a beautiful person both face and personality. him and george ? people will say that they are that couple fall from the heaven.

while saint, he is just a man that publicly looking so perfect but dead inside. he still trying to look for his own life that was ripped away from him by his own father figure. he need to start from the beginning in his late twenties, but he don't have any other choice or else.

"guess the old saint astor will be so proud of you"

"i hope so"

fernan hold saint's arm and smile,

"trust me he will and will always be, you have grown up to be an adult successfully"

"thanks fernan, for always supporting me all the way from bottom to now. you are my best bro ever"