coffee and cigarettes [winnysatang]

broken

ever since the day warka's hearing gone, warka could feel the distance between him and his older brother, jayden. for some reason, jayden kind of keeping a thick wall in their relationship.

so one day, warka got back home from school all wet and dirty. emi got worried and keep on asking him questions about what happened at school that make him looking all nasty like that. warka just keep his mouth shut and keep his head down all the time.

he let out his phone and type something then show it to emi.

"can you keep this secret ? i don't want jay to see me like this"

emi read those and frowned then she let out her phone and do the same thing.

"he will be mad if he found out about this late, you know he has an anger issues. we should tell him about this or else"

warka beg and beg for emi to keep what happened as a secret between them until emi surrender and just do what warka asked her for.

day after day, warka keep on coming home wet and dirty but that day was the worst day. his uniform was torn off and his school bag was soaked with mud. he is dirty from his head to toe, he had a few bruises and wounds covered up his face and body.

what more worse was jayden was the one who saw warka in that state. warka was shocked when he found out that jayden was the one who opened the door for him that day.

warka forced a smile even though his lips was bleeding, trying to convince jayden that was nothing.

jayden look at him in disbelief then he hug him so tight to hide his tears from warka. warka was shocked by the sudden hug but he just let his older brother to hug him because he could feel the hiccups between jayden's breath.

jayden was crying.

warka was too tired and collapsed in jayden's hug in front of their house door.

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warka slowly blinking his eyes adjusting the lights in the room. he turned his head around checking his surroundings and founf out that he was in his room and sigh before struggling to sit.

emi walk inside his room with a glass of water. one thing warka noticed, emi's eyes was covered with tears. warka tapped on emi's arm to make her look at his direction.

"did you cry ?"

he asked using sign language. emi smile and shakes her head.

"no i am not, it's just onions. i am cooking just now"

she replied with sign language too. warka nodded but then he noticed that someone is staring at them from the outside of his room. he tilted his head to see and he was right, jayden is standing there looking straight at them with sturn face.

warka smile and wave his hand but jayden just keep his face that way. warka felt awkward so he stopped waving and eyeing emi about jayden. emi sit on the bed and hold both of his hands before letting out her phone and started to type.

"jay found out about you getting bullied at school and he didn't like it but he already settled down everything for you. after this you don't need to attend school anymore, because we decided to homeschool you"

warka didn't like the idea of homeschooling, he refused by shaking his head aggressively. he eyeing both of them beg for them not to homeschooling him.

"i love school please let me attend school like usual. didn't you said that jay already settled down everything ? i will be fine so please let me attend school"

he beg using sign language desperately. he keep on shaking emi's hands and rubbing his hands together begging jay and emi to hear him.

jayden walk inside the room and took away emi's phone and type down something.

"no objections ! you will homeschool and that's it ! i can't bear you to come home looking nasty like that anymore"

warka took back the phone and type down a reply.

"no ! i want to attend school just like before ! you said that you already settled things down ! so why can't i go to school anymore ?"

jayden gritted his teeth after read what warka just typed then he throw the phone on the bed and it almost hit warka.

"you will stay at home ! that's what i decided for you ! you can't even defend yourself against bullies and you want to give your fucking opinions about your life ? fucking ridiculous !"

warka can't read jayden's mouth because he speak too fast and much. he look at emi confused, asking emi to tell him what jayden just said but emi refused to look at both of them. warka got frustrated so he pick up the phone and type down.

"talk slowly i can't read your mouth if you talk too fast, jay"

jayden scoffed then pointing his index finger right onto warka's face.

"see ? you are this helpless and fucking hopeless yet you want to attend school like before ? never in hell ! you stay home !"

warka frowning because he still can't read jayden's mouth movements. jayden got frustrated and cupped both of warka's cheeks and mouthing slowly each words.

"you are deaf and helpless so stay home and never get out unless needed. do you get it ?"

warka stare at jayden's mouth for a while because this time he actually can read them and it hurt like hell. after that, jayden left the room with anger while warka stare at his back that slowly disappeared from his eyesight.

he didn't realize that tears were flowing down from his eyes wetting his face and blanket. emi hug him and rubbing his back trying to calm him down.

ever since that day, warka never forget that feelings. the way jayden look at him, how jayden make him got a clear view of his painful words and how jayden left him in his room.

ever since that day, they never communicate with each other. warka didn't even dare to look at jayden in his eyes, because he is afraid that jayden will put more salt into his wound.

he loves jayden so much, he knows jayden sacrificed a lot for them to living comfortably like this but what jayden said that day to him just another level of pain. that was the beginning of their relationship broken down and faded away by days.