[ ✰ ☾ ⤷ ] ❝ i doodle on the walls of the world ❞
where the author has too many ideas, but too little time to write all of them so she puts them all in a one shot book.
or where i, riley, sometimes just want to write to practice without it needing to...
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#bangchan title : close as strangers words : 1600+
note : i wrote this in two hours so it might have errors or something but i was feeling... feelings, so i wrote a kind of sad one shot while listening to close as strangers by 5sos. kinda angsty, too, because i tend to be good at that or whatever. i hope you like the one shot though<3 maybe i kinda like the fact that this one shot is all over the place, it adds to it. well, enjoy! i guess
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Six weeks.
It has been six weeks since Chan has gone on tour, six weeks since he's been away from home. He misses you every day. He had hoped that you could come on tour with him and the kids, but due to your work that didn't happen.
Every day he texts you, every day he calls you, but it's not enough. He wants to see you, he wants to hold you. He wants to hug you, give you kisses all over your face and he wants to tell you how much he loves you.
But he can't, because you're in Tokyo working on an anime and he's in Europe on tour.
Every day that he has spent away from you feels like he's drifting further and further apart from you. Every day apart from you feels like he's losing a part of the relationship he has with you.
Texts and early morning or late night calls, that's all the two of you are going to get for the following months that he's away. In months the timezones will be even worse than they already are right now, and it never gets easier.
Whenever you wake up, Bang Chan is either still on stage, or he has to go to sleep. You exchange a few quick texts, but then you have to go to work and he has to go to bed. Then when you're done with work, he wakes up, sometimes when you're still at work. You have a quick call when you go home and make dinner, and then he has to go to work right after to prepare for his concert for that night. You chill out for a bit, and when you have to go to sleep, he has dinner and sends you a few quick texts in between. When you sleep he's on stage performing his heart out for the fans. And every night, he loses you in a thousand faces, the thought of you gone for the moment.
You go to sleep alone, your stuffed black cat plushie in your arms, crying yourself to sleep. And when you wake up, it's the same circle all over again.
And when Chan goes to another continent, the timezone changes and so does your schedules. You hate it.
Are the texts and calls really all that you're going to get? Small talk whenever you have time, and quick calls when the time is right?
Your friends have it easier, they're on tour with their boyfriends, but that's not in it for you. You're stuck in Tokyo for work, animating all day long and even during the nights if there's a tight schedule. You barely even have time for him, yet alone that Chan has time for you with his tight schedule. He's always working, whether that being preparations for the concert, it being interviews, fixing new tunes, or video clips; he's always working on something, meaning he barely has time for you.
