The Book of Cosmi

Chapter 21: Cosmic's Monologue ~ Love

| Cosmic |

The war lasted a long time but it finally, finally was won. I went to Heaven. It's more of a form rather than an ability, that allowed me to defeat Gaea. Though spontaneous and unknown, this form is something of a horror that I wish never to enter again. If reality is mine right now, then reality is in the palm of my hand in that form. Any wrong move on my part and everything falls apart completely. I was very diligent with my movements when fighting Gaea, but unfortunately I still messed up, some things are unstable. But not to worry, it should be an easy fix, should be. But that's besides the point. War was grueling. Thankfully for us, not many lives were lost because Gaea did not murder our race, only made it unbalanced and unstable. That's not for now though. From this chaos though bloomed something beautiful. An age of life I'd love to call the "Age of Greatness." Everything begins now truly. But this new age wouldn't truly exist without something so very important.

Love.

Love is something that makes up the foundation of this Omniverse, and this accounts for any kind of love. Kind of. It's a very powerful emotion that exists in every being regardless of how cold, dark, or evil one can be. Love is a concept that even I am new to, true love that is. I love my sister dearly and I still do, she's the greatest thing ever to be in my life, but even then I never had a romantic attraction towards anyone, and I sort of hypothesized that true love was what I was missing still in my life.

My sister on the other hand. Love is not a foreign concept to her. She might even be able to be titled the Goddess of Love, might. She's a klutz all the time. But even when she was being an idiot, she loved everyone and everyone loved her, she was impossible not to love. The kindest of souls in the Omniverse. She wouldn't ever hurt a fly (In most cases). She's very careful and methodical with how she does things even in fighting. She's never killed anyone before and I see it staying that way. But if you even slightly push Cosmos in the wrong direction, she turns into something quite terrifying. Not like a beast or anything, but her mood becomes very angered and she will drive you mad until you wanna rip your hair out from your scalp. I know from personal experience, it was horrendous. I told her we didn't have to visit the damn prisoners of Zexaos, yet she still insisted on doing so for some reason.

She was loved by everyone, that was until Xander came along and totally shut her down, confronting an Everlord right up everyone thought he was going to die because of how moody Cosmos can be. Turned out she took it as a challenge more than a threat. She ended up chasing after Xander, trying to get him to love her, but every time he pushed her away. I believe she began to chase after him due to the fact that he saved her on multiple accounts during the war against Gaea. In the end she ended falling in love with Xander, totally backfiring, and now she was chasing after his love. I think she fell too fast. Way too fast. It took forever to get him to show any ounce of respect and kindness towards Cosmos in a romantic sense, but he eventually did. Right after Gaea was abolished from reality and sent into an infinite death loop by me, Cosmos, Xander, and I all together went to fix reality across the Omniverse and the realm. It took a long time, a very long time. I lost count. In that time, Xander and Cosmos' love began to develop, soon a relationship and bond was formed. The two kept seeing each other and learned about each other. And soon they became eternal lovers. I don't know how Cosmos got any emotion out of that cold man, but she did and I was proud, she was the first in the line of the Cosmi family to have found love.

That's when I noticed something called a bond. I've seen bonds before, between elements and atoms, but I guess it never occurred to me that love works in the same exact way, to form something newer and better. Most of the time. That was the case with Xander and Cosmos, their love became so strong that they actually became stronger as beings in this Omniverse. Xander gained purpose outside of the Cursed Tower and now had a reason to enjoy life. Before, he told me, he did not feel like ever existing outside of the realm ever. Cosmos totally changed that. He's gained a soft spot, in a good way. But even though he's changed for Cosmos, he's still the same person. He's blunt and cold towards me, his teacher, he shows no respect towards me and even threatens me at times. The only reason I do not retaliate is because of how powerful he's become in such a short time... I realized something when he was fighting Gaea and how high his level of power was at the moment, completely blowing her out of the water, but that's a topic for another time.

So what about me? Love is foreign to me and I don't know much about it. Well within that time, I did indeed find love, Trinity. A creation of Cosmos, originally a name of Cosmos' signature spear, but unfortunately was lost in the chaos of Gaea's hell. So to make up for its loss Trinity was formed into a goddess, unrelated to both Cosmos and myself, not a part of the Cosmi family. Cosmos did not do this for me originally, she actually did because she wanted to honor her signature weapon, which at times actually became a woman that was absurdly large in height. Probably hundreds upon thousands of meters tall... I never understood why. When Trinity was created, she was born a fully grown woman and at first I didn't really take interest in her, she spoke with Cosmos and Xander a lot during the rebuilding of the Omniverse, that was until one day I was forced into a situation where it was only Trinity and I. We spoke for a while, and I learned a great deal of knowledge about her and she did about me as well. We clicked well and spoke lots, probably for years on end. It was nice. It was not until the rebuilding was done, that I had realized I had experienced love. This woman was someone that could make me feel joyous even in the quietest of times. It was something very new to me, and it turned out the feelings were mutual. So, Trinity and I began bonding, and formed a relationship. Love was a foreign concept to both of us, everything was new and we went along with it, going with the flow. It was not until a while later we formed a pact and became lovers for all eternity. Love was very unique and I must say, it does not disappoint.

Despite the glory it brings though, it has unfortunate downsides. Some I've already experienced. The fear of loss was something Cosmos and I knew all too well. Losing each other was something we feared the greatest out of anything, but now with lovers. Loss was something that could not be handled lightly. Our bonds, our relationships, our love with our partners was something we could not fathom losing. Especially as the Omniverse's deities, we were always targets, we know because of Gaea... we were always very cautious now.

But despite the sorrows and woes we have about loss, something even more powerful than love itself was born. From this love between Trinity and myself, a child was born... the first Cosmi Child. A Cosmi Princess. It was my dear child, Etsumi Cosmi. Although sharing a personality much like her Aunt Cosmos, she had strength that was absurd, beyond that of any other. She was a young lady, she was born seventeen years ago. Izea was being raised by Xander and Cosmos, he was a young adult, twenty-one years old to be exact.

Regardless of our fears. Love is something very powerful and every being experiences it. A bond and relationship are created from it which sometimes results in something more powerful, a child. It's a strange phenomenon, but I'm grateful for it. I've never been happier in my life, the golden age of life is soon to begin. I'm prepared to see what it holds for us.