𝕊𝕒𝕚𝕪𝕒𝕒𝕟

Chapter 1

*Tara POV*

It's three in the morning, and I am lying on my bed, waiting for sleep to come. I stare up at the ceiling blankly. The night is peaceful, but my mind is the complete opposite. It's a complete chaos, with all kinds of voices speaking to each other, reminding me of all the wrong choices I made in this life.

I am stuck in a vicious cycle of thinking about the past, reliving all the regrets and mistakes, and dwelling on the things I could have done differently, but now I can't do anything about them.

Now here I am, in complete darkness that has been my friend for years, trying to get at least a little amount of sleep without any nightmares.

As the night grows darker, my eyes start feeling heavy, and sleep takes over me.

Suddenly, I am in a familiar place, a place I never wanted to see again.

My head is filled with all kinds of voices from the past. Some are mocking me for being weak, while others blame me for being a coward and running away.

The voices in my head are so loud that I can't even focus on what is going on in my surroundings.

Before this change, the last thing I remember is that I was in my room, that means this is another one of my nightmares. I don't want to go through that day again, even if it's a dream.

Today, I don't want to be stuck here, waiting for that monster to come and ruin my night like he always does. So, now I am going to run as far away as possible. After gathering a little amount of courage in me I start running as my life depends on it. After running for a long time, I stop because my body is tired. I sit down to catch my breath.

It's been a long time since I have been sitting here and nothing is happening, everything is peaceful, except for my mind. This peace is making me even more nervous about the future. I just want to wake up.

More time passes, and still there are no changes. It's as if time stopped the moment I left that room.

After a lot of contemplation, I return to that room again and wait for the monster to come and take away another piece of me so that I can wake up. I just want to leave this place and go back to the place where many precious things exist. I don't want to be here alone.

I am frustrated, angry and just want to disappear but nothing is happening. I am still stuck. I don't know how long I have been here but it feels like eternity.

I start to try all the things that might take me out of this place: throwing all the stuff here and there, looking for any escape inside the room but nothing seems to be working.

The voices in my head are getting louder and louder the more I spend my time here and now it is getting unbearable for me.

As I get lost in my head, I start to feel pain inside my body - an unbearable amount of pain. The source of pain is unknown to me as my eyes are hazy due to crying for a long time.

After some time, I wake up from my sleep due to the pain, sweating badly because of all the events that happened, and I am glad that I woke up.

After calming my nerves, I open my phone and look at the time that shows it's still early morning and I just had 2 hours of sleep. That is still a big time compared to other days where I couldn't even close my eyes due to this nightmare that happens almost every day.

I go through that day again and again, but today I decided to run away. That led me to the horrible situation of getting stuck in the room that I never want to be in.

After sitting at the same place for a while I feel something wet near my hands, but I can't see the source of this wetness due to darkness inside my room.

I get up and switch on my room's light and the scene in front of me is not something I expected.

My whole bed is covered in blood. My whole body feels numb looking at all that blood on my bed.

The feeling of burning on my arms snaps me out of my shock, looking at my arm to inquire about the burning and realize it is my own blood that is on the bed and it's flowing from my arms.

I don't remember getting this wound on my arms.

"How the hell did this happen?" I speak out loud.

I try to remember all the things that could have led to this huge wound but no matter how much I think I can't remember the exact time.

Then it clicked me.

The pain I felt on my arms in my dream.

I did this to myself.

I don't know what made me do this to myself and I am not even worried about it.

I am more worried about how I am going to tell my parents about the reason behind this huge wound and all the blood on the floor and bed.

Mother will not care about this but my father will be worried.

He will freak out as this is not the first time I did something like this but the only difference is that this time it is unintentional.

I promised him that I will not do this again but guess I failed in fulfilling that promise.

The voices in my head started laughing, making fun of my state.

"FAILURE", the only word I can hear in my head.

It's loud, too loud for me to bear it. My heart is beating fast and my body is feeling weak.

My vision is getting blurry and suddenly my whole being gets covered in darkness like it's drowning in a deep sea and I don't even want to get out of here.

Okay so I am done with chapter 1. Do tell me your views on this chapter.

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I will be posting new chapter every Wednesday.

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