Use me don't love me(unedited)( gxgxg)

Different me 1.

Freya's pov

School was starting tomorrow, summer break was finally over and of course Isabelle was throwing a party this night , I was going to be there and I had nothing to do and Isabelle had invited me to come

Although I knew why I was invited, to help tide up after the party was over , which was okay I prefer doing something rather than being idle cause my mind never seem to rest , always thinking about stuff

" if I didn't know you I would definitely think you're depressed " 

I turned to see my elder brother terry leaning on the door. He was shitless with a drink on this hand. I could say my brother was extremely handsome , he was redhead with bright green eyes , charming smile and all that but he kept to himself , although compared to me he has few people who he Could call friends and a cute girlfriend . Unlike me I have never dated anyone and I don't even know who or what am attracted to

" how long have you been there "  I moved my attention from him realising I was staring too much , which I do a lot to people

" long enough "  he walked over to sit  next to me
" what is so cool about staying out here " my brother asked as he got comfortable on deck chair

" makes it easier to think " I looked up at the sky
" plus the view on the sky is always pretty "

He chuckled " aren't you tired of thinking , with the way things are going you aren't going to get a boyfriend " He paused " or a girlfriend "

" don't care " I did though I have thought about it but then I have considered it among things that don't matter

" okay , you probably would change your mind sooner or later " his voice had a softness to it ,was he pitying me
"You are going to a party tonight , do you need a lift? He spoke after a while getting off from the deck chair

" No I'm good, willow said she was going to pick me up " i was surprised she offered to , normally Isabelle would have had to beg her to do so , or maybe she did and I wasn't aware. Don't get this wrong though cause Isabelle pleading on my behalf is because it benefits her , after all is her errands I'm always doing.

" okay , see you later, might head out to see some friends " Terry went back to the house and I was left alone with my thoughts

I was so lost in my thoughts for a moment but after a while I felt so sleepy and I gave in to sleep

I don't know how long I slept but I felt someone gently shaking my shoulder
I opened my eyes to see my brother "what "

" aren't you going to the party anymore" he eyed me

" yeah I am "

" well it's 8:00 and willow is here already "  he didn't even wait for my response and left .

I stood up and followed suit  , willow sat  at the dinner table, her back face to me . I took notice of what she wore , I did that a lot . I did a lot of things and then I wonder why I do so . She wore a boy short and a white t-shirt , so simple but yet it screamed expensive . Her short length hair made her neck tattoo visible.

Guess she could feel someone staring at her cause she turned to gaze at me with her hazel eyes

"WTH why aren't you dressed ... she paused and looked at me like she was seeing me for the first time" you dyed your hair red?? She seemed surprised

"No I'm a redhead " just like my brother too but for the pass the three years I have dyed it black cause my hair reminds me of my dead dad , but I'm ready to move pass that stage

"Oh you are, i never knew "  well there was a lot of things she didn't know about me

" are you gonna stay here or you wanna follow me up to my room , so I could get ready " I glance at my brother who has been there pretending to be on his phone but I knew he was listening to our conversation

She followed my gaze to my brother " guess I would follow you up

" alright " it crossed my mind that this was the first time willow was going to be in my room or someone else apart from family . We reached the door to my room and I opened it letting us in.

She glanced around " your room is nice and really organised "
she chuckled " too organise if I should say , my room can never be like that , I'm too messy " she sat on the edge on my bed

"I'm pretty much a clean freak " i walked over to my closet to get the dress I was going to wear. I had chosen a black short dress earlier on today. I pulled the top I was wearing over my head revealing my sport bra .i love sport bra they are so comfortable and I wasn't large so I don't worry about my nipple being visible

"Erm erm , my thoughts were interrupted by Willow clearing her throat . I looked over at her to see she was all red

" what you getting flustered for, haven't you seen a girl naked before "

" you're are so straightforward frey " wait did I just hear frey, that was new. I know friends have nicknames for each other but this was the first time willow called me frey . Her and Isabelle have nicknames for each other obviously, Isabelle literally calls willow babe and willow calls her 'is a bell' , which at first annoyed the hell out of Isabelle but she got used to it and kind of likes it now .
I choose to ignore the nickname and pretend I didn't hear it
"Of course I have seen girls naked , this was just unexpected " she said looking away from my chest

" how so , you know I was here to get ready"

" yeah , I thought you would go to the toilet or something "

" why would I , you got tits too and they are very much bigger than mine "

" I guess so but girls like like girls you know " she was blushing so hard now and it made me chuckle. She made me laugh that was something rare

" what so funny " she said using her hand to go through her hair something I observe she did when she was nervous

" I know you don't like like me , but are you attracted girls willow ? I asked .

" you should get dress , be downstairs waiting for you " she ignored my question and with that she left.

So she's attracted to girls , that was something I didn't know , there was many things I didn't know and yet so much I do know . And yes I jumped to conclusion but I am always never wrong

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