Use me don't love me(unedited)( gxgxg)

Why was i being weird

Freya's pov

The car ride was quiet , expect from times when I made little sounds cause willow drove like a maniac and didn't even glance at me .
What was her problem, I don't know , I don't care either but I had a feeling it was because of what I asked her when we were together in my room

I guess I understand the difficulties of being in the closet and not wanting to come out , never experienced it but I have read about it on Wattpad .

"do you wanna play music " she broke the silence but her focus was on the road

" there's no need we're almost there"

" oh " she sighed

" you can play if you want to "

" no I'm not a fan of music "

" but you play music on school rides" I could recall the songs that were played when I do join them to ride to school, mostly sza , billie and a bit of kehlani

" if you do pay attention to us you could have known that's Isabelle playlist " 

" if i do pay attention to you guys? I know you have 13 tattoos and 8 piercings, you act like you hate studying but you secretly love it , you lost your virginity at 16 and you have an abusive ...

" that's enough " she interrupted, her voice held volume

" now is enough? , I'll admit I went a little over board but it's fact, you didn't even know I was redhead until today ...."

" I don't know what to say "

" don't say anything then , I don't care that I'm invisible to you guys, I'm not complaining and I never will , I'm honestly just glad my mum isn't worried about me cause she thinks I have rich friends but don't go throwing accusations on things you are guilty of "

She didn't say anything but from side view I could see that she had a strong grip on the steering and was gritting her teeth.

I guess I was harsh but then I couldn't say I was angry , I just felt that had to be said
But one thing I could say is that I was being weird today

Why was I being weird today

Soon we reached the party , we got down and I could see Isabelle at the door greeting people
She wore a green dress that matched her emerald green eyes. Isabelle was gorgeous and breathtaking, she was blonde , rich and dating Henry  Theon, as much as I dislike the name Henry but I couldn't ignore the fact that he was a good guy

We walked over to her ,on sighting us Isabelle smiled
" hey babe " she hugged willow
"Hi freya , didn't see you throughout the holidays " she spoke with a smile on her face .  It's crazy the way she could smile and be sweet and also be mean too

" yeah , how's the partying going "

" you guys were just right on time , me and willow are going to head in , could you bring in the crates of beer from the car? " her smile not leaving her face, if she honestly think that it was her smile that got me hook up in doing her biddings she should think again

" yea sure " I turned to go get the crates but someone grabbed my hand . I turned to see it was willow

" do you need help "

" no but suit yourself" I caught the look on Isabelle's face. She looked surprised but she masked it up immediately.

Willow followed me back to the car
" you really don't need to " I said to her as she helped me grab one crate

" it's our party , isn't it ? "

" no it isn't but thank you "

"Yea , about earlier .,,,

" let's just forget about it " we walked in silence to the kitchen , every where was so crowded , people dancing , talking , making out and doing all sort of things

" erm , well I'm heading to the dance floor , I think I saw Isabelle with henry over there  , you coming along? " she asked

" no I'm good , might just stay here for a while before I head to the dance floor "  i really want to dance but I needed a drink to get me to that mood.

"Okay , I'm just gonna head over then " she smiled at me and with that she was gone.

I walked over to the fridge and grabbed a beer . I wouldn't say I love drinking beer but I don't mind and this one didn't have a bitter taste rather it had a mild cherry taste . 

One bottle was down already and I didn't feel the need to take another one so I headed straight to the dance flow , finding my way through the crowd until I got a spot I could stand without making contact with someone else. I began moving my body to the rhythm of the music , swaying my hips and I was feeling lively. But that didn't last long cause some dude started grinding so close at my back that I could feel his bulge . I took a step forward but he came closer .
It was getting to my nerve , I turned to face one random dude , ugly as hell and so drunk . I pushed him and he moved back a little

" playing hard to get , I'm sure i turned you on " he grinned . And it irritated the hell out of me

" unfortunately for you , I'm always prepared for this kind of situation "
i said getting my pepper spray bottle from my hand purse hung over my shoulder On sighting it , he scoffed
"you need to get laid " he turned and went away as far as possible
I looked around observing that no one was aware of what just happened , they were all carried away with whatever they were doing .
I sighed , I was no longer interested in dancing anymore, and that perverted ugly human being was the cause of it . I scanned around to check for an empty chair , which was set at each corner of the house . I found one just across me although some girl was sitting beside it . I walked over , she raised her eyes from her phone and it followed me till I sat down

" I was watching " she spoke , her voice was strong but yet soft ,she was pretty , she had three piercings on her face, she was brunette and her lips were plump

"huh"

" I saw how you handle that dude , it was impressive " she grinned

" oh thank you , I guess

" you guess " she glanced back at her phone for a second before giving her attention to me

" well he said I need to get laid " i don't mind the conversation but I have never seen her before , did she even go to our school

" is that so " she laughed . The way her facial expressions was while laughing brought a smile to my face

"I'm sure you get laid wherever you want after all your beauty is incomparable " she came close and tuck some strain of hair that was on my face, behind my ear

*****
Felt so sleepy when I wrote the  last part of this
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