A Piece of My Mind

Numb

 I truly don't know and I wonder on and on where did you go. I was really completed by your magic and I felt like you were the piece of the puzzle that defined me, that made me who I am... but, not suddenly, but progressively, you were gone. I feel it over the years, you know, I'm losing myself as time goes by. My smile was a bit wider the year before and even wider the year before that. Today is different. I know that, today, I look myself into a mirror just to find a broken smile. My smile is gone. I couldn't carry this weight, why would you?

 You broke me.

 I am to blame.

 It is my fault.

 I used to be happy.

 Damn illusion... I saw the world in such bright colors that I swore that mystic, that energy wouldn't go away for nothing... forever would be with me, by my side, on and on with life, and I would always be remembered as the cheerful one in the room.

 Now I'm just the sad clown and there are nights where I feel like I deserve it.

 This is one of them.

 As I grew away from the humble bubble, all I felt changed me forever; that lonely street, that building that used to call for me will never be the same, old one now shall never call my name again, and the ocean will still run as if it could or as if it would help at all. Distant memory, happy life, I can't have that, they took you away just because they felt like it, I'm not strong enough to come get you, so I sit and I pretend I'm unfazed. One drop hits the ground and I know, in the miserable dark, that my eyes are not shining anymore.

 The world won.

photo by: azlanishere