The Girl That Waited (Jin x Zuko fanfic/AU)

Decisions

(POV: Zuko)

Choices...how could Zuko pick. He felt like he was disappointing his whole nation. Ruining the spirit of what people bowed to him for. They didn't bow to him for who he was, they bowed to him for what he represented. But, at the same time, he didn't want that horrible burden on his face to be represented through history. No one wanted to hear of that while walking down the hallway of Firelords. He... Didn't know what to do. And that frustrated him. I never seem to know what to do! He thought frustratedly. He put his head into his hands, grumbling as he then got up and just threw himself on his bed. Why were decisions so HARD!? He didn't understand! Well...he did...but..he didn't... He had liked being in Ba Sing Se with Jin. He didn't like why he had been there, and the horrible thing that had happened to Jin and her family... But he had enjoyed being able to not have to do all this crazy Firelord stuff all the time. It wouldn't be as bad if he had someone there to help him. He missed his uncle. Oh, how he missed his uncle. Iroh would've known what to do in this situation. But.. Zuko did NOT wanna bother him. And then, he missed Jin. The sparkle in her green eyes when she talked... Or how she was so patient... He had his mom, but, Ursa already knew about the painters and had already said to Zuko earlier that she couldn't really think of any advice for him. He wasn't gonna go and ask her again. Kiyi was to young to be thrown in the middle of all this and Zuko didn't know if Ursa had told his stepdad, Noren, about how he had gotten his scar and his did NOT feel like explaining that on top of all this. The only person he had ever really told about how he got his scar, was to his mom, who had also faced abuse by his father. Ursa also knew Ozai and Zuko's relationship before she was banished, so it was easier to explain to Ursa, and even then, he hadn't really "explained" it to her as he just put her hand over the scarred part of his face and his mom had said she understood. He felt alone in this matter. He just wanted help. Help with all this. He just laid there on the bed and let out a deep sigh. Decisions... So many decisions.