I wake up in my messy room,the light shining through the curtains.I roll in the bed until I can't ignore my urge to go to the bathroom anymore.
God,I don't want to get this day started
I drink my usual coffee,with little sugar and no cream,while smoking a cigarette...now I can do it with no problems,since my parents found out a few days ago. They were very less pissed than I had expected,but I think they know I do way worse than smoking cigarettes
So,I've thought this through,today I'm going to Freddie's house and tell him...well everything:I want to give him an explanation,tell him I like him. Maybe have sex,if it all goes well obviously But...yeah,maybe explanations first. Just maybe
I put on my same make up as everyone else,smudged eyeliner and mascara and get dressed
the outfit
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I have lunch with my parents,it's plain spaghetti with tomato sauce,it's good though
"It's good"I say "Dad cooked it" mum says "Oh,really?" "Yeah"he says That's a surprise "Well,they're great" "Thanks,Trish"
He's...better,maybe he did stop drinking.I just hope it stays like this. I wash the dishes and dry them
I go to my room and take a look in the mirror Uff,I'm ready
I smoke a cigarette on the way to his house,the nicotine relaxes me
What if he's angry at me? I did ignore him,I wouldn't blame him First I reject him,then,when I kiss him, I avoid him. I hope he wants to see me
I get to his door,a bit too quickly for my licking I take a deep breath and ring the bell God I hope is dad doesn't answer,that would be traumatizing Luckily it's Karen
"Hi,is Freddie in?" I ask "What for?" I have to make up something "Well,I have to give him something..." Head,I'd like to give him head but,besides that "...he left it at school and I found it so..."I continue "Oh,yeah,get in.FREDDIE IT'S FOR YOU! He's upstairs" She says "Great,thanks"
I go up the stairs and a door opens "Hey"I greet Freddie "Hi" He invites me to get in his room Alright,I went over this a thousand times in my head.I have to explain him. "Erm...I hav- I'm interrupted by him once again,with a kiss and of course I kiss him back
I look at him,he looks at me and gets up
He closes the door Oh,yes
We make out,our tongues cross,lose and then find each other As i kiss his cheek and make my way to his neck,he turns the stereo on,blasting some shitty music I surely don't mind it We take each other's clothes off and keep kissing as I make him lay down. I feel confident,like I'm on charge
