One shots || Jake Webber x Johnnie || Smut and stuff

unforgettable memories -fluff?

So this is basically based off smt that happened to me, just w Jake n Johnnie and more fun fresh and silly. So yeah! Sorry bout not posting! It's currently 5am and I haven't been to sleep yet while writing this😘

Tw! PTSD, self harm mention, SA mention, abuse mention, depressive state/feelings, and stuff along those lines

(Johnnies pov)

It was around 11pm, and Jake and I just got done watching a movie together. The movie was pretty good, but reminded me of old stuff that had happened to me.

Jake was of course sleeping the whole movie, so I'm just sitting here everything dark besides the lights in the kitchen.

I start to think about what happened to me when I was younger, not realizing I was shaking a bit.

I remember the abuse I had from my dad, especially when I was 7. I start to tear up a bit, still thinking about the past. I remember the amount of times I was assaulted, badly, to the point I hate any physical touch without permission or knowledge the person...

I zone back in to find myself having a panic attack, while crying. I cover my mouth, trying to stay quiet, looking at Jake sleeping still. I continue to shake, my body vibrating. (Rose toy core😍)

I start to get PTSD, from when I started self harm at a very young age. I think about me cutting myself when I was 9, but only small cuts at the time. A bunch of thoughts run through my head, making me zone out again.

I don't realize Jake sitting in front of me trying to calm me down, as I continue to cry.

(Honestly so hard to write since this is all based off of me, but w no one to help me lol)

I zone back in jumping slightly as I see Jake, rubbing my back softly. He says something, back I can't make it out since I feel so stressed and upset about all that happened.

He pulls me into a hug, I hug back tightly still crying. He leans back slightly, as I lay on top of him. He rubs my back, reassuring me that it'll be okay. I slightly make out his words as I take deep breaths.

I close my eyes, slightly still crying. I feel a sleepy feeling take over my body as I drift off slowly.

He continues to rub my back, holding me close to him. He kisses my forehead softly, as I fall asleep.

BLAHH BALHHB BLAHH!

so how it actually happened for me is I started having rly bad PTSD, got a panic attack and passed out🥵🔥🔥🔥 yeah that was at like 3am so that was pretty sigma. Anyway sorry for not posting, I'm honestly not doing great at all. Like I'm either depressed or manic, never normal, I'm passing out so much lately, I'm barely eating, I'm not leaving my house at all, and I'm js overall doing terrible so yeahhh. Hope this was good enough for ur liking, if not I'm so sorry. I'm trying to write again but honestly I suck ass at it and I'm giving up on everything😸❤️