Tw! Sh, suicidal thoughts and attempts, family problems, abusive shit, and yea.
I'm so fucking sorry for not posting. I've been dealing with so much shit idek how to explain it. I've been sh-ing 24/7 again, like super badly to the point I pass out. I've attempted to end my life at least 3 times these past 2 months. And honestly no body irl ik will do anything. I'm constantly hurting, like my whole body, and mentally and emotionally. My house is ass crack farts. Life fr. Let me yap bout this.
Okay, first off my dad is abusive asf. Like bro beats me until I'm crying and begging for lil bruh to stop. I have marks on myself from this big back ass bitch. Then my mom, she just doesn't seem to care about this, and just talks down on me 24/7. My siblings argue just like my parents do, and when I get involved suddenly everything is worse. Like I swear, my siblings literally start punching me over everything, I can literally breathe then BAM I have new bruises. My parents just drink and do drugs all the time. And I just vape, drink, and do shit I shouldn't do because I just want to excape.
Okay anyway next topic, A TOPIC THAT A RARELY SPEAK OF. SA.
Okay so basically I've just been getting terrible PTSD of multiple times I've been SA'd. Like, when I was 6 just at a pool party...yea, creepy uncles is all I'm gonna say...But like I can't go out anywhere without thinking it'll happen again. Then 6th grade year when my own "friend" used to literally TOOUCH MEEE. Like...We're friends, this ain't not friends to lovers gacha ass story from 2017. But anywayyyy. And also the time someone went behind when I was bending down and GRIPPED MY FUCKING ASS AND PULLED ME AGAINST THEM AHHH😭😭😭😭 I can't even talk bout this anymore.
But like bro my sh cuts and scars rn and terrible. I'm an actual walking Walmart bar code💀. (Sorry I'm currently yelling‼️ my family is being not so silly sigma) But like yeaaaaa.
NAUR BECAUSE LIVE LAUGH LOVE BEING ZESTY BECAUSE MY BF GETS ME FREAKBOB FR!!! LIKE BRO CALLED ME BABE AND ISTG I BUSTED WITHIN SECONDS... ERMMM ANYWAY
But like yea, I'm going to the hospital tomorrow, I hope I can try to start posting again for you guys. Lol urmmm anyway bye pookies, kiss the homies but not hop the homies😊💗😍😍✨‼️🐺💅🍑🍆🍑🍆🍆🍑🍆🍑🍆🍑🍆🍑🍆
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One shots || Jake Webber x Johnnie || Smut and stuff
Fanfiction'As he slowly grabbed my waist and pulled me in, I felt a red blush cover my face as he looked in my eyes.' One shots || Jake Webber x Johnnie Gilbert || Smut and stuff || TW!!! homophobia, juicy smut, drug use, acholic drinks, 13 - 18+ scenes and...
