Instant star : A fan fiction

Where does it hurt

Part 4 --Where does it hurt--

Jude jumps into tommy's arms and plants a kiss on his lips.

Jude: tom I missed you so much!!

Jude grabs Tommys head and stares into his eyes. He had a look of pain

in his eyes that was mixed with an emotion jude wasnt sure if she was familiar with or not. He just stared at her.

Jude: Tommy, you hate me don't you. I knew it.

Jude gets a sad expression on her face and begins to feel helpless.

Tommy: Jude what are you doing back here?

Jude: I came to see you tom, I felt bad about going off and leaving you

here alone...

Tommy: jude, no we shouldn't be seeing each other. Its a bad idea. every time we become a couple everything goes wrong.  It's a train wreck jude

and im not willing to be a passenger anymore.

Tommy gets a look of pain in his eyes the look that only jude has been able to draw from him. she could tell by his eyes that he was hurt and needed some one but tom was always scared of commitment.

Jude hits tommy on his chest with her hand. "shut up tommy shut up thats not true. *she breaks out into tears*

Jude: Im sorry tom,please don't let this happen to us again. We've been through this to many times. I forgave you for dating my sister, I forgave you for running out on me every time I fell for you, and humiliating me in public. I went through all those things with you and even more and I never gave up on you tom! Please don't give up on me.

By now jude is in tommy's arm crying she had been holding this in for the last three days and now was time to put it all on the table.

Tom places both hands on jude shoulders and gently pushes her away.

Tommy: Im sorry jude we just arent meant to be together. We just can't keep hurting ourselves like this! face it jude you are to good for me. I don't

deserve anybody like you. Im always hurting the people I care about. First it was angie and hunter, then your sister sadie, quest and now you jude. Its has got to stop. You may have not thought nothing of your leaving but

I considered it a sign. A sign that we just dont mix jude.

Jude is drowning in tears now. She just couldnt understand why Tommy

was always so eager to give up on their relationship. But she knew nobody 

would ever completely understand tom but himself.

Tom just stands with a blank look on his face

Jude: *grabs tom and looks him in his eyes* Quincy I still can't figure out

why you do the things you do, but I still believe in you even though you may not believe in yourself right now and I forgive you tommy. Jude hugs tommy again

Tommy: I should be going jude.

Tommy walks away and heads towards his black sports car.Jude begins to 

chase him screaming and crying

Jude: tommy! tom! don't go . Why do I always end up hurt? What is it about me that I need to change. I fall for you so hard and you just let me

go so easily. What is it with me tom!? Tell me so I can fix it and we can be together, tell me what I can do to make you care about me again!

Tommy: No. Jude your perfect. It's not you Its me. I dont know whats

wrong with me Im not the guy you know.

Jude: yes you are tom. I know who you are you are great.

Tom gets in the car and cranks up. Jude leans down into the window and looks at him.

Jude: before you leave can you do one thing for me please?

Tommy: ok Jude what is it?

Jude: promise me you will come over tonight so we can talk.

Tom grabs judes hand and for a moment she can see the passion in his

eyes that was there before the breakup.

Tommy: yes jude I will be there I promise.

Tommy drives off and judes walks inside the house to join sadie in the 

front room.

Sadie: How did it go jude? A smile covers sadies face

Jude: (in a reassuring voice) It's not to good right now, but it will get better(she starts talking faster) We will watch a movie We'll eat dinner and we'll laugh, it will be like old times. Jude nods her head even though she doesn't really believe it herself, she still has a glimmer of hope inside.

Sadie: It's hard to read tommy but Im sure he cares alot.

Jude: nods her head. "yeah".

Jude goes upstairs to her bedroom to get some rest before she sees tommy. After all she hadnt had a good night sleep since she left europe, because  she had been so nervous about seeing  tommy. She was drained

both emotionally and physically. Before she knew it sadie was in her room

waking her up. She pulls herself out of bed and gets sadie to do her hair and make up. She puts on her hottest most rocking skirt. Like they say

the best revenge for a broken heart is looking hot in front of your ex boyfriend.She is jude done getting ready when the door bell rings.

Jude: I'll get it, Its tommy.

Jude runs to the door as fast as she can. She opens the door to find tommy.

Jude: hi tom come in.

Tom walks in.

Tommy: HI jude what do you want.

Jude: I want us to talk tommy ok, I want us to enjoy each others company, I want you to love me again tommy please!

Tommy grabs jude and wraps his arms around her.

Tommy: jude I can

JUde: why tommy, nothing has changed Im still the same jude

Tommy holds jude tighter and rubs her head like he used to do while

she rests in his arms.

Tommy: I cant start loving you again because I never stopped.

Jude looks in tommy eyes and starts to kiss him.....