Boss's Woman - Regretful Hero

Chapter 8

This was all Dimitri's fault.

if he had minded his own business instead of bothering me... Everything would be fine. I don't understand where he gets the nerve to insist on talking to me. I had already told him with no certain words that I was not interested in being his friend anymore and yet...

The scene of him letting that woman touch him and say horrible things about me is still burned in my mind. How could he think things would just go back to normal? Because he was handsome he thought I would be more than willing to forgive him?

Do beautiful people always act with that kind of audacity?

I remember very well how it was for me in school. Always been making fun of... Just for the sake of it. No matter how much I tried not to draw any attention to myself, there was always some kid trying to make others' lives worse. And the beautiful ones were sometimes worse with this kind of nasty attitude.

I wished so much Dimitri was a different kind of man. His good looks, and the manner in which he had treated me initially were so nice and sweet... I thought maybe... just maybe, a man would really ask me out naturally, without me being awkward or embarrassed in the process. 

So much for having expectations... 

Now... what does one person do when she lies to her mom about going to a family dinner with a date?! It was not like I could go to Jason and say, "Hey buddy, dinner at six at my mom's, bring some flowers. See ya!"

Uhhhhgh! Dimitri was a dumbass for making me lie to my mom!

Just thinking about explaining things to Jason made my face get hot with shame. I couldn't possibly ask a guy out like this! My stomach was churning with anxiety just with the thought.

What does it matter anyway? Mom would have to make it do just with me. After all, it was better to go alone than to make a fool of myself by asking Jason out. It was normal stuff in my life not to have a person with me at family gatherings. 

When I lived with my parents it got kind of tiring being asked constantly when I would bring someone home or, even better, when I would lose some weight so I could bring someone home... Parents can be very exhausting sometimes. With their desire to "help" and push their kids forward, they could surely make one feel small with their questions.

If Dimitri had not acted like a jerk he could have been the one who accompanied me places. He could have been so much more... I ached a bit inside wondering about everything that could have happened between us.

I have dreamed of being seen in a different light by him... but Dimitri was like everybody else. Neither my efforts to work out nor the fact we like to hang out together had been enough for him to stand by me when I needed it. The jerk.

I made a little sound of annoyance and finalized my exercise, wiping the sweat from my forehead with a tired movement. I was about finished with my training and with everything else for the day. 

After my mom's call earlier, I decided to blatantly ignore Dimitri and started training with Jason instead. Dimitri had looked kind of pissed off with my attitude and had nervously run a hand over his face while still looking incredulous at me. Seeing I was set on ignoring him, he stormed off back to his office without another word being said between us.

Jason had this funny look on his face as if he couldn't believe his eyes. I only hope we're not acting like the protagonists of a romance drama in the middle of the gym.

I gave Jason a weak smile and started stretching for the beginning of the training and he didn't try to ask what was happening between the two of us, for which I was grateful. I didn't really know what was happening, honestly. I dare not believe Dimitri was really decided to continue with this nonsense of asking me out.