𝔟𝔦𝔱𝔢 𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔬 𝔪𝔢

weird text, horrible outing, new friend.

me and gustav walk back into the restaurant, everyone not acknowledging our existence - which i appreciate. plus, this is a time for eliana to get to know the guys - i don't want the attention on me.

bill moves up for gustav as he sees us coming back. although, gustav lets me in first and i go and sit down in the corner. i cross my arms, he comes to sit back in between me and bill. he puts his hand on my knee, his touch makes me feel oddly safe and comforted.

well, it's not odd. he's gentle, i love that about him. i exchange him a faint, secret smile and he exchanges one back.

'so, gustav...' tom smirks, 'got your eye on anyone?'

tom is going to drive me mad, he's pissing me off.
he knows what he's doing right now.

i don't know if a vampire and human relationship is forbidden, but i can tell the guys sure do treat it like it is.

'no.' gustav sternly says, 'how about you and eva, are you two fine together?'
tom's about to say something - but then he stops. the corners of his lips tug up into a smirk.
'yeah, we're good actually. she's a good kisser, especially in the sheets.' tom laughs, and georg, eliana, gustav and bill laugh along. but, gustav's sounds fake.

eliana then speaks up, 'what about you, delilah?' she cups her chin in her palms, 'got your eyes on anyone yet?'
'yeah, eliana.' tom teases, 'got YOUR eyes on anyone yet?'

i simply shake my head, 'no, a relationship is too much commitment for me.'

right after i say that, i interlock my fingers with gustav's hand that's on my knee and squeeze it softly - indicating i didn't mean what i meant.

well, partially i did.
but when it came to gustav - i was ready.

anyone else, not so much.

she nods, 'alright that's fair. what about you bi-' she stops as we all realize that bill's gone. we get a tiny bit worried, but then we hear the bathroom door close - we're the only ones in here, so it's definitely him.
georg shrugs, 'guess he had to go to the bathroom.'

the minutes tick by, we get our food in around 15 minutes as they've already ordered. i guess they assumed what me and gustav wanted?
but, i don't eat my food.
i toy at it, mindlessly staring at it. gustav's got his hand off of my knee, now joining into their conversation.

i don't get it.
i feel so out of place here.
like i don't belong here.
eliana fits in so good here, i bet she'd fit in just as well with them whether she was dating georg or not.
the girl was skinny too. perfect, actually.

it kind of hurt to stare at her, she looked like such a doll.

why couldn't i?

'i'm going to go outside.' i whisper to gustav, but it seems that he doesn't even listen to me. he's just drowned in the conversation.
i go to the back of the restaurant where me and gustav just were, and i get out a cigarette and light it up.
i feel myself relax as i slouch against the wall, inhaling the poison fumes.

quickly after, i get a text message.

k: heyy girl

great, it's kimberly.

d: oh, hi.
k: wydd :)

d: why are you texting me?
k: why not?

gosh, could this person just leave me alone? i'm leaving so many hints for them and they still won't go.

d: you're getting on my nerves, you know.
k: that's fine.
k: as long as i get to talk to you, i'll stay <3

i'm about to actually block this number till i remember...

i could use someone to chat to.

d: you're lucky i feel lonely, or else i wouldn't have texted you back. i would've blocked your number instantly.
k: that's cute, liebe </3
d: what's that?

k: what's what?
d: 'liebe'?
k: it means love!

i felt a little bit unloyal letting this person call me love, but i decide to roll with it anyway. i mean, they could be annoying but they couldn't have any bad intentions, right?

d: uh, okay. just call me delilah?