𝔟𝔦𝔱𝔢 𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔬 𝔪𝔢

prove it, then!

i squint at him, no way he did THAT.
'excuse me?' i put my hand on my chest, feeling my heartbeat start to beat more rapidly than ever, 'why?'

he steps closer, he has this slight sparkle in his eyes, which is unusual. he always looks dead and soulless.
'because,' he brings his cold fingertips to my face and puts them on my cheek,

 'i love you.'

i take a step back.
'no.'

he looks confused and brings his head forward, squinting, 'what? what do you mean no?'
'i mean no.' i rub my temples, 'i can't do this right now bill.'
'you asked why i did it, i've given you the straight reason.' he shakes his head, confused.
i groan, 'bill - you show up at the front of my dorm, make a lesbian joke about eliana, i find out that YOU'RE the one who hid the body - and now you're in love with me?'

'i've always been in love with you, how couldn't you tell?' he tries to defend himself as he steers the topic.
'bill, please! you've turned me into a MONSTER, i forced myself to kill my ex-best-friend because of you!' i step closer to bill, obviously mad as my voice starts to raise.
his voice, however, gets quieter, 'let me tell you something delilah.'

'what?'

'who do you think was there when those love songs started playing? who do you think was the one behind kimberly? who do you think sent you that weird text at the restaurant and kissed you secretly in the bathroom there?! who do you think was the shadow person basically LIVING in your room?'

he admits.

he then continues,

'it goes as far back as to a few months ago, when i first met you delilah. something about you was just so interesting, so complicated, it was just there. i couldn't give you up for anyone else, but i didn't know how to tell you.'

i instead take a step back, 'and you think stalking me is the way to go about it? bill, are you serious?'

'delilah, just hear me out.'

'i don't want to hear you out, bill! please, just let me process everything in my mind before i even consider what to do with you.'

'delilah.'

'bill.' i sigh, 'stop.'

as his face softens and his body language shrivels from tense to 'i give up', i start to creak the door close.

i have my back against the door as i slide down, my arms crossed. i watch eliana peacefully sleep on the couch, i guess vampires don't hear much when she's sleeping? or maybe that's just her, she is a deep sleeper - her words, not mine.

i'm about to make noodles, until suddenly -

there's a bang at the door.

i turn my head around in an instant, i just want to boil my damn water.

there's then another bang, but it isn't like an aggressive knock.

when i realize what it is, my adrenaline kicks in as i then rush over to the door, trying to keep it closed with my body weight.

i grunt, 'bill! you just can't kick down this door!'

he doesn't listen to me though, he instead keeps trying to bust his foot through the wall. feeling him kick the door is like feeling someone punch my back repeatedly, which is NOT a good feeling.

'bill!' i grunt again, through my teeth. i then give it up, and open up the door - almost breaking it off of it's screws, 'what's wrong with you?'
'i'm not just going to disappear, delilah. it's going to take way more and way longer for you to try to convince me to stay away before i do.'

'why are you so complicated?!'
i feel myself snap as i then start to yell at him.

'because i love you, delilah!'
he yells in his defense.

'prove it then!'
i yell back at him, for the final time.

when i say that, he just goes stiff - so still.
he's still breathing, obviously. it's just like i can see the gears shifting in his mind, but then again - i could not predict what's in this man's mind at all, and even if i had the power to - i wouldn't use it. because, news flash, this man is messed up.

i heavily breathe, feeling like i just ran a marathon - only that it's not a marathon, more like a screaming competition.

'i will.' he says in a stale tone.
'what?' i reply back, my voice quiet.

but then, i feel something so irregular.
but so familiar.

he instantly grabs my waist, his lips against mine in a matter of nanoseconds.

wait, what?

how do i even feel about this?

'bill...' i whisper as he pulls away.
'shhh...' he shushes me up, hands still on my waist as he then walks me into my own dorm room - closing the dorm room behind us.

'bill, eliana's here..!' i whisper-yell at him, but he just shrugs, indicating that he doesn't care. at all.
'that's what a room's for.' he says, before dragging me into my room - closing the door behind us.

before he can kiss me again, i decide to speak up.
'bill...' i take a heavy breath before i start to speak again, 'i don't know how to feel about all of this.'
'it's fine,' he pulls me in closer, 'i was there once, but now i know.'

after he'd say that, his face tilts and his lips land against mine once again.

i don't have time to process anything, ANYTHING. right now.

i should hate him, i DO hate him.
this is wrong, if this escalates i'm gonna be doing the same thing i did with his brother like... when? yesterday? 2 days ago?

IT DOESN'T MATTER!

what matters is that me and tom were in this same exact position so recently, in MY apartment. if we were in the kitchen, kissing each other on the kitchen sink - it'd be an exact replay.

but on the other side,

why does it feel so good?

i feel guilty for thinking this, but why do his lips feel good against mine?

tom and him are identical twins, i know.
but both of their kisses and their lips feel so different.

like, emotionally? i don't know, probably that. because physically, they're the same. the exact same.

it's so scary, kissing someone you've hated for a long time.
and with one kiss, you realize, your feelings about them can change in an instant.

i wonder if bill has hated me as much as i hated him. from now on, i'm going to say 'hate' in the past tense when it comes to me and him.
well, i hope i can.
or else this kiss will just be a making out session, then i'll get thrown away. i've felt like that too many times, i can't feel like that around someone i'm trying to change my strong feelings about.

'delilah...' bill whispers into my lips, tilting his head even more to gain full access to my mouth.
i can feel our tongues start to find each other, like something lost that you've been desperately trying to find.

during this, i felt like he was the only one kissing.

but, i'm going to change that.

i feel myself start to reciprocate.
not just physically, but mentally as well.

i slither my tongue into his mouth, moaning his name so quietly - yet also so deeply.

'bill...'