Why Don't I Hate You...

8

shohei's pov.

I felt so lost the entire drive home. I was confused. Why is Malia clouding my mind so much?

I finally get home and look at the time. Shit. It's 12:34am. I didn't realize how late I left the party. Now I know why Mamiko was so worried about me. I enter the house and immediately our alarm goes off. I run to it to turn it off hoping that I didn't wake Mamiko or Decoy. But of course, I hear Decoy's tiny footsteps running down the stairs and his barking. He comes running up to me and jumping up down. I bend down and start petting him. I pick him up and head upstairs. I walk into our room and I see Mamiko sitting on our bed just on her phone. She looks up and immediately smiles. How cute. She comes up to me and hugs me. I put down Decoy and hug her back.

"Hi honey! You've been out for long and you haven't been answering my texts. I couldn't go to sleep because I started to worry," she said.

"I'm sorry. I was so caught up in all the conversations that I forgot to respond. I'm sorry."

She walks back to bed and turns on our tv. I start to get undressed and into my sleeping clothes. I go back to bed and start watching whatever Mamiko put on.

"So, how was the party," she asked.

"It was good. There was a good amount of people there. I had a lot of interesting conversations."

"Oh. Sounds nice. Who was there?"

"It was at Will's house, so him and his wife. Um.. Yoshi, Chris, Mookie, Kike, and you might not know him because he's not on the Dodgers but Cody."

"Cody...? Oh! He's on the Cubs, right? But he used to be on the Dodgers?"

"Yeah! Wow. Good for you."

She just laughed and said, "Shutup. Anyways, did they bring their partners?"

"Yeah, everyone who had a partner brought one. You were the only wife that wasn't there."

"Oh sorry. If I had known the wives were coming, I would've joined."

"It's okay. Don't worry about it."

"I know all the Dodger wives, but I don't know anything about Cody. Who did he bring?"

I'm almost always honest with Mamiko. Huge emphasis on the almost. She knows pretty much everything about me. Including past girls.

So she knows about Malia. But she doesn't necessarily know everything. She knows that we were a thing for a while. She knows how we started, how we ended. She knows everything that happened between us. The only thing she doesn't know is how much I really was in love with her. Well... how much I'm still in love with her.

When Mamiko and I first got together, she somehow figured out I was still in love with Malia. We got into a massive argument about it. Then eventually we came to an agreement. Because of that agreement, I think she just assumes that I'm over her completely. Don't get me wrong, I love Mamiko, but Malia crosses my mind everyday still.

Ever since that argument, Mamiko despises Malia. She hates it when anyone says her name, talks about any film she's in, she won't even let us watch movies or tv shows she's in. It's understandable but still rough for me to say the least.

So, I think you can understand why I was having a hard time telling her that Cody brought Malia to the party.

"Oh- um- he brought uh... Malia. He doesn't have a partner so he brought her. I didn't know they were such good friends. I didn't know she'd be there either," I said.