SHIELD ME (ShubmanGill×IshanKishan)

Ch 33

TW : MISCARRIAGE

Shubman got his mate to the hospital as fast as possible. He had to yell at the doctors and nurses, because they were going to make him wait, since they were very busy tonight. Ishan was going in and out of conciousness by the time they got there. Shubman feared for his mate's life if had made him wait any longer.

Luckily, Ishan was going to be okay. The pup that he was carrying inside him though, was lost. He was sitting beside him, trying to comfort him, while he apologized for losing the pup.

"I'm so sorry Shubman..."

"Don't be sorry, babe. Its not your fault."

"But I miscarried! I ruined Diwali for you!" Ishan cried out, tears running down his face. "I lost our pup…"

Shubman held onto him, rocking him back and forth. "Listen, Ishan, don't blame yourself for this. Me and you have been through a whole lot, and I know we'll get through this too. We'll try again, okay baby?"

"O-okay."

They both heard a knock on the door. Outside the room, was the doctor who had helped save Ishan.

Shubman kissed his mate on the forehead. "I'll be back, baby. Get some rest, okay?" He soon left the room, so he could speak to the doctor. "You wanted to speak to me?"

"Yes, Mr. Gill. Well, you can take him tonight. Just make sure he gets lots of rest."

"Alright, will do." He looked back at Ishan through the window. "When he's ready to, we'll try again for another pup."

"Actually, I wanted to talk to you about that. You see Mr. Gill, we've discovered that his reproductive system, his womb…"

"What about it?"

"It would be too risky to get him pregnant again. He is able to carry a pup to full term, its just that he could die from carrying it. Mr. Gill, has anything ever happened to your mate, you know, to ruin his reproductive system?"

"Well, he was r*ped from a very young age, until I rescued him from an omega market when he was sixteen. And this year, he was kidnapped, and his kidnappers r*ped him, and cut him open. He was six months pregnant."

"That must be the reason why his reproductive system is the way it is. Going through that much trauma can really mess up an omega. Physically, mentally, and emotionally."

"So, it would be too much of a risk to get him pregnant again…he's not going to be happy with this. This is going to be hard for him to accept."

"You can always adopt." The doctor gave him a weak smile. "I'm sorry for what you two have been through. Just be there for him, alright?"

Shubman nodded his head, heading back into Ishan's through. His mate had fallen asleep while waiting for him.

He put his hand on his shoulder, waking him up. Ishan looked up at him. "Shub…Are we going home?"

"Yeah, we are." Shubman handed him his clothes. "Here, go get dressed, and then we can go."

They had gotten back to their house, still sitting in the car. Ishan came up closer to Shubman, resting his head upon his shoulder.

"I love you."

"I love you, too."

"You've been quiet throughout the whole ride. Are you okay, Shubman? What's wrong?"

"Ishan, I need to tell you something. Please don't get upset, okay?"

"Um, okay? What is it?"

"The doctor told me that theres is something wrong with your reproductive system. You can still get pregnant, but it would be too risky…you could die."

"Then I won't get pregnant again. We can always just adopt."

"You're not taking this as hard as I thought you would be."

"It…it does make me upset. But, I don't care how we get a pup anymore, just as long we can become parents."

"I just…wanted to have one with you that made from our love."

"I know, Shubman. But, whenever we decide to adopt, we'll love it as if it were our own."

"Okay." Shubman squeezed his hand, giving him a small smile. "C'mon. Lets go inside."

They both headed inside the house. Sonu, Mahi, and Abhi were cleaning things up. Mayank was sitting on the couch, with a worried look on his face. When he saw Shubman and Ishan, he got up going over to them.

"Is everything okay? Did the pup survive?"

Shubman shook his head.

"Oh no…I'm so sorry. I'm here for you, if you guys need anything."

"Can you excuse us, Mayank? I want to give Ishan a bath."

Mayank moved out of their way, that way so they could both head upstairs.

When they got up there, they went inside the bathroom. Shubman started up the bath, while Ishan took off his clothes. Once the tub was full, and he felt like it was the right temperature, he helped Ishan into the tub, sitting him down in it.

"Come in with me. I want you to hold me."

"Not right now, Ishan."

"Why not?"

"I need to be alone right now. I'm going out somewhere, I'll be back soon, okay?"

"Shubman, please. I need you. You need me. We can't be apart right now."

Shubman came up to him, giving him a gentle kiss. "I'll make it up to you when I get back, I promise. Just clean yourself up, and then lie down."

He soon left, leaving Ishan by himself. He could hear him screaming his name, and crying.

"Shubman! Shubman, please! Come back! I need you, please!"

Mayank, who could also hear Ishan screaming, came running up the stairs. "Whats going on? Shubman, why is Ishan screaming? What happened?"

"I'm going for a walk."

"A walk?! For what?! Shubman, you can't leave him alone, he needs you." He said, trying to talk some sense into his friend.

"I just need to be alone for a bit. Please, take care of him until I get back." He pushed right past Mayank, heading downstairs, and towards the front door.

"You should be the one to take care of him, not me!" He yelled out to him. He went inside of the bathroom, seeing Ishan crying in the tub.

"Ishan, hey, its okay. He's going to be back."

"He left! He left me alone, Mayank!"

"Hey, I'm here. I'm here for you now." He wrapped his arms around Ishan, trying to comfort him, but failing to. Ishan wondered what he had done wrong, wondering if Shubman still loved him as much as he said he did.

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