The Perfect Addiction

51• Touch

Liam's POV:

It has been 3 days since she's been in the hospital and I haven't left her side. The fact that she hasn't woken up yet makes me lose hope each day. Seeing her laying there half dead knowing that I could have saved her by I didn't makes me mad at myself.

I slowly touched her soft pale face. The same face that used to smile at me...make me laugh but was now in this position because of me. I sigh, feeling the ache in my chest the more I stared at her.

I got up and decided to take a shower which thankfully Kaden came in early to drop off my clothes since I've been here since she got here. I had Isabella shifted to another bigger room which had a comfortable bed...big bathroom and had brown soft cushions for me to sleep on. After showering, I started looking through some emails and looked to some documents until it was 2 am.

I got up to get ready for bed, while changing in my comfortable clothes I heard some mumbling sound. I turned to see Isabella's finger moving. I quickly rushed over to her bed. My heart beating so loud that I thought someone could hear it.

"Isa? Baby, please wake up for me." I sweetly said gently brushing her hand. Her eyes slowly opened and my grey eyes finally met her calm beautiful hazel brown eyes. "Baby, hey, thank goodness." I quickly hugged her but enough for her not to get hurt because she had just woken up and her body was fragile.

In this moment, I felt at peace. My heart ached at the thought of losing her. She was going to die because of me. She was going to die. I didn't notice I was crying until I felt her hand gently brushing my hair and my chest was shaking s if I was crying. Her shoulder was now wet with my tears.

"La-Liam? I'm okay. Please don't cry." Her voice cracked. I quickly turned to wipe my tears and poured her a glass of water to help ease her throat. She slowly sat up with me helping her, careful not to touch her wound.

She drowned all the water and one go and gave her the second glass as she also drowned that all down too.

She looked better than when she first came in. Pale skin with her own blood covering her small petite body. I'll never forget how she looked that day, feeling her drift off in my arms. No more kisses, no more hugs, no more her.

I thought I would be fine without her until I almost lost her. I'll never forgive myself for this.

"Liam? What are you thinking about." My attention turned back at her. Seeing her small cute smile as she looked me as if she wasn't laying half dead days ago.

"I don't deserve you." I signed looking down. Ashamed of even staring at her in the eyes. The guilt my heart carries is something I've never experienced and I hated it. I hated it because I know I was at fault.

Her hand gently touched my cheek, stroking it in a gentle manner. "What are you talking about?" Her soft voice spoke up with confusion.

"I almost lost you forever. I- I almost lost you Isa." I finally looked up at her. Her eyes showing love and warmth I didn't deserve. But she still looked at me as if I was her light.

She then grabbed both my cheeks and turned my head, making sure I was looking at her. "But you didn't. I'm here looking at you." She gently pushed the hair that was on my forehead. "But you got hurt. I- fuck! I couldn't even protect you." My cheeks got wet from the tears that were falling.

"Please don't cry. I'm ok baby, I'm here because of you. I'm alive because you came and saved me. So please don't waste your tears on something so small?" My eyebrows crunched into anger.

I quickly stood up, shocking Isa from my sudden movement.

"You think this is small?" I stared at her shocked. She was about to say something when I spoke first.