I didn't have any friends in school but I eventually made a couple and one of them was Al. I loved N, and then I had one more friend, we'll call them S. (for slime demon because their name also starts with A and I used A for my fake friend)
I never told N that I loved him, I just silently stayed friends with him. We all became close friends. (I still identified as a girl and so did N so I thought I was a lesbian)
Also, I don't even remember how I became part of the friend group, all I remember is one day I was just, besties, with them😂.
I also have had a friend called M since I was I think 2 years old. We are still friends.
