Only Yours (PrapaiSky fanfic)

Chapter 10 - Race

Prapai's POV

This week went by slowly. People were tense; everyone was nervous. I was avoiding Pa Porsche as much as possible, and he was letting me. It was as though he was waiting for me to fail and, at the same time, cheering for everything to turn out alright.

Sky and I were complicated this week. I knew he was using me to distract himself. Well, to be fair, it's only Thursday, and I've met him twice this week, but all we did was kiss. Not that that is a problem, but at the same time... I don't know; maybe I was just expecting something different.

I'm actually on my way to meet with Sky now. I'm unsure of my thoughts on current events, but I can't focus on them. It's important, but tomorrow there will be a race, and I need to give everything to that. There's too much at risk.

I get to Sky's apartment, and I take the elevator. I have food with me because it's already late, and I'm worried Sky hasn't eaten yet. As soon as I arrive, he opens the door and lets me in. I look around, and I think it's the first time I've ever seen this place with things out of place.

"Hi!" I say as I'm greated with a peck

"Hi!" he says and smiles. "I'm just finishing some things. It's fast, I promise, and then we can eat."

I smile at him and just go and sit on the couch. I'm distracted; my mind is remembering race after race. All the races I won and all the races I lost. Everything I did and every movement my body made to ensure victory. I'll do the same tomorrow.

I just hope that everything is just a false alarm. There is no killer out there, and it was just a coincidence. It's a bit stupid to think like that, but, as they say, hope is the last one to die. I confess that having Uncle Kim there makes me both more secure and more nervous. He is, after all, a mystery, even to the family. I would say that there is only one person who knows him, and that person is Uncle Porchay. I don't know what his being there is going to change... I guess we'll have to wait and see.

I'm lost in my mind, and then I just feel Sky sitting on top of me. He has never done this before. He sits comfortably on my lap, his legs one on each side, and his hands are now grabbing my head gently.

"You seemed so distracted." He says, looking into my eyes. "What's on your mind?" He asks, but I'm still processing everything.

"Problems at work. Some stupid clients, a bunch of meetings with stupid people." I say and take a deep breath. "Work has just been a lot these past few days."

"Rain said you had a race tomorrow. Are you nervous about that too?" He asks as his hands fall gently to my neck... Wait, that's not what's important! Why would Rain say something about this?

"I'm always nervous, but I have a lot of confidence too."

"That's good." he says as he gently starts to kiss my neck

I lay my head back and enjoy the moment. Sky's lips travel around my neck and my jawline; his hands tease where his lips aren't touching. He is a meneasse, but that is not something I didn't know. My hands are in his hips, and I force him afar from me, because even if this feels good, it doesn't feel right at the moment.

"I think we should talk after the race." I say this as I look at him

"Did I do something wrong?" He asks with an expression full of fear

"No. I just... I want more than this. Not in the sexual sense of the phrase..." I say, and he looks down. What am I doing? I said I wouldn't have this conversation now, not when I have other things in my head.

"I don't know how to have that." He says, "In my other relationships... more was the same as sex or doing some kind of fantasy. I don't know how to do the more you want..." he says as he picks his nails, and now I understand why he was like this during the week