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Written by, in the teenage years of, a not so special girl, with a not so special past, with a not so special life. Written by a girl who could never write poetry in the first place, but still did so when her emotions spilled over the edge. Writte...

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Shut Up

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by ghostybae_

by ghostybae_

I want to sew my mouth shut

I want to become mute

I want to never be able to talk again.

I never seem to shut up when I talk

I can't shut up.

I know I can't,

And it's tied for the biggest insecurity I have.

People like to hit it where it hurts I guess

Because even my own parents yell at me to shut up.

Though they know how it affects me.

I want to shut up

Every day when I go home, I make plans to not talk the next day,

Or to never talk again.

I never keep it.

Every time I open my mouth, shit spews out,

So much so, that even when I talk about something important,

Everyone eventually stops listening.

Maybe if I died?

Maybe if I died I would finally be quiet.

Would people even miss my voice?

Or would they say, "Thank god she's gone! I don't think I could stand another minute of her talking!"

I think the former.

I don't know if I truly want to die

At least not anymore.

I think I just wish to cease to exist.

That I would disappear, along with any thought or memory of me.

I wish I could just

Shut.

Up.