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Chapter XX•these days

He had always loved life on tour, perhaps for the thrill he felt under his skin every time when people shouted not only his name, but that of the band in general..

If he just thought about how it all began, it seemed like just a distant memory, now past and without any return, yet if it wasn't for the beginning, it would never have transformed into that something he had always hoped for..

Yes, because it doesn't matter where you arrive, but the efforts to obtain what you hope for matter more, he had always thought this and he was rightly not wrong..

He looked inside himself, sometimes, and thought about how many times at the age of nine he hoped to do something in life that would lead him to be the person he always wanted to be..

Those childhood dreams had finally come true, with a lot of effort and with a lot of determination and with a pinch of recklessness..
Dreams of a child who, secretly listening to music in his father's car, dreamed of one day making his voice heard..

And that day had arrived, in fact he had been in it for a while now, but he had never stopped dreaming of something even bigger...

The tours were merely the representation of those projects and dreams shared with the rest of the band, dreams that would never abandon them in life..
Dreams that would have been part of them forever and that once they got older they would be remembered to have to tell..

Yes, because the tours were that feeling and that opportunity to make anyone say they didn't want to go home before they ended..
It was nothing but the glorification of all the efforts made to get there..
They were back with Keep The Faith and now they were coming back again with another album, namely These Days..

In arrestables this is what they had become, a real musical war machine..
Another return in style, their style, that style that everyone could recognize and that would be part of them forever as a band..

And Jon looked at that stage under construction, the one that would see them as protagonists for two consecutive dates in New York and then move to the rest of the world..
And he looked at him so big, so much so that he was almost afraid of him, but then for what, after all he had had much bigger ones...
In fact this was in a small format!

The setlist was now finished, the songs had been chosen, no songs were taken, in fact they were all there, starting from the first album up to the last..
With the closing of Always, yes that song had been so successful as a closing that it was inevitable to leave it as such...

And it was beautiful, that song, truly beautiful, even if it spoke of horns and betrayed people..
But there was a magic in it, so intense that it made you forget the true meaning of the song itself...

And this time he wasn't alone admiring that stage that was too big for him, but Arianna was also there, who had decided to accompany him because she liked being behind the scenes and not being seen and so much too...

And Jon was grateful that she was there to accompany him on this new journey and this new tour, he was happy that she had taken some time off for him and would accompany him around the world..

But for Arianna it was something to do, for her getting engaged meant accompanying him with love in everything that was important to him..
And Jon had done it for her and now she would do it for him.

Singing on stage made him feel alive, they were a part of him that he would never give up, and Arianna would never ask him to do so..
She was still a fan of his..

For Jon this tour had to be different from the previous one, nothing had to look the same, for him, it was his mentality..
Each tour had to be different, if not better, just as they were different and improved after all...
But always with the same if not greater desire to entertain people and have fun on stage..

Yes, because a concert had to be a moment to forget about everyday life and just be fans having fun with those on stage singing every song at the top of their lungs..

A perfect moment of sharing, here's what it was and what it would have been..
Yes, because the music was nothing but an exchange of energy between the band and the audience under the stage and those sitting in the stands..
An exchange of emotions one after the other almost enough to make you forget your problems..

And how many times with Never Say Goodbye had he seen marriage proposals and every time the same emotions happened not only for him, but also for those in the band..
Because it was as if they became a big family without really being one..

There were no distinctions, they were all a family to each other and whoever was watching them..
And now it would happen again, yes all this would happen once again, and he couldn't wait to start dreaming and making people dream..

Because in the end they weren't just a band, but they were five kids now adults, with a destiny written in the stars and an indestructible brotherhood, ready to dream again, because you don't stop dreaming until you decide it..
And they had decided not to stop doing it.

Also because that job included dreaming and dreaming big, and no one would have forced them to stop..
Also because it would have been quite useless after all..

Yes, sooner or later that moment would come when, looking at himself in the mirror, he would say "in those days I did my best"..
But that day hadn't arrived yet and it certainly wasn't time, because his perfectionism was still there vigilant to make him give the best he could still give and that he was giving to the whole world..

Or surely sooner or later he would have said "in those days I discovered what it meant to slow down and not be too much of a perfectionist", but it certainly wasn't that day and he certainly would never have said it or at least not now..

The only thing he could do now was look at that stage and think that the best was yet to come and that it would begin very soon...

- ready for tonight - Arianna told him, looking at him sweetly

- as always - Jon said softly..

A kiss and then here he is in the midst of that climb that separated him from the stage, or rather from that flight of stairs that separated him from his life, made up of music and people's scream..

Known author
Here we are with the twentieth chapter!

As you can see there are no dialogues..
But for these issues it's better not to raise them, because I wanted to focus only on his emotions and nothing more..

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