Better // M.C// ON HOLD SRRY

2.0

Finally, getting out of the hospital was such a relief. It was soo boring laying in a bed not being able to go anywhere. The guys only visited a couple times a  week because they couldn't afford to miss school.Plus after school, they had practice since the apparently they signed up for the schools  soccer team. But on the other hand, my mom came to visit with David all the time. They seemed pretty happy together so I didn't give her a hard time about it.

Now, trudging out of my moms car, i slowly walk towards the house, not bothering to look over to the guys house knowing there still in school since it 12. My mom slowly following behind closing the door once we both make it into the house. 

"You know you really scared us right?" She softly said. 

I nodded, not making eye contact. "I just- i guess the shit that happened with Luke got me pretty bad, plus Clara not being here, she was my best friend- from what I've been told- i really feel like something missing, but I honestly didn't mean to scare you like that, i love you mom,"

Bringing her into a hug while she let out a small sob. 

"I love you too son, now go up to you're room and rest, you look pretty tired." She said patting my back. 

"Yea i guess i will, see ya mom," I said kissing her forehead and heading up stairs. 

I reach my room and sigh  tiredly, finally back in my comfy, messy room.  I walk over to my bed but I cant help but to stop right in front of the mirror and look at myself. 

I look really pale. Was I really this pale before or what? I need a tan. I then look at my arms. Bandaged up from the cuts I made in my skin that night. Holy crap I remember that night!  Memories flooded back to my head where i was cutting and then Calum came and tired to stop me while i had been the bathroom with a bottle of pills. Oh my god, I remember that so clearly. 

Then I just walked to my bed and layed down scrolling through my phone. It was about 12:30 so just a couple more hours till they get out of school. My mind instantly went to Clara. When is she ever gonna come back? How come i can barely remember anything about her apart that shes my best friend apparently. I went to look at our messages to see what we talked about. I scrolled up to the highest point that our conversation started and boy did we text a lot. 

The 1st 5 minutes of reading our convo was pretty funny. She was kinda just like me, we would say pretty random things but it was fun. I re-gained knowledge of her, knowing most of the things i knew-well now know again- about her. I looked at the time now, it was 2. My eyes started to get heavy and i just complied with the feeling and drifted off into sleep. 

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"Awe look how cute he looks!" Some girl voice said. 

"Should we wake him? He looks peaceful..." another voice said drifting off  a bit. 

"I think we should its 8, I think hes been asleep for too long," They said. 

"WIll you l all just shut up," I grumble 

I wake up to only see my 4 best friends standing around my bed watching me intently as i sit up and grab my phone to check what time it is again. 

"8:37?!" I Yelled. 

"What time did you fall asleep?" Jamie asked curiously  

"2" I simply responded 

"Dang were you that tired mikey?" Luke asked, chuckling a bit 

"Yea I guess- wait hold on," My phone started vibrating outa no where so I assumed someone was calling. 

"Hello?" 

"Hey mike its Clara, um I know i said i probably wasn't coming back,I know that was like so weird for you because you went through this before-" 

"Clara I missed you but get to the point," 

"Well im coming back i miss you way too much, i just miss everyone so im actually on the plane right now so could you come pick em up when I land?" She ask in a soft tone with hope

"Yea sure," 

"Great thanks mike, see ya" Then she hung up. 

"Well i guess I have to go pick Clara up from the airport.." I trailed off. 

"So you're gonna tell her what happened right? She your best friend she deserves to know since she cares about you," Ashton says sitting down on the bed. 

"Yea i guess, can you guys come back tomorrow, im still pretty tired i just wanna be alone right now..." 

"Yea sure, but tomorrow we'll go to the movies since tomorrow is saturday ok?" Calum asked with a pupy dog face that no one could say no to. 

"Fine fine," i said 

They all laughed and then left. 

After about another hour passing by, I heard yelling and things being thrown downstairs. I try and run downstairs with out hurting my self 

But what I see is not what i expected... 

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HA CLIFFHANGERS ARE THE WORST BUT HEY IM BACK FROM THE DEAD. 

IM GONNA TRY AND UPDATE MORE REGULARLY SO YAY 

I LOVE ALL OF YOU WHO ARE HOPEFULLY STILL READING MY STORIES 

LOVE YOU LOTS 

KIARA.