The strict Teacher and me

Chapter 9: Was I ever loved?

Walking on a sunny day my sister clutched my hand tightly. We walked to the park. I remembered before Amara was born my dad would pick me up and put me over his shoulders running away from my mum while she was laughing. Then we would get chocolate ice cream. We would talk, laugh and fly kites. What had happened? What had changed? Amare jumped on me sending me back to the harsh reality. I didn't want to do anything, other than cry. I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to see one specific person. I didn't want to make a fool of myself again. 

"YOUR DUMB" echoed through the hallow passages of my mind.

My bottom lip was quivering as I entered the nursery. Amara left with the teacher as she escorted my baby sister to the nursery. I was sad to see her go. She was the only one who has brought me peace when my father had beat me. With that I hurried off and I wondered where I went wrong. When I was younger he would play with me, feed me, laugh with me and my brother but now that I think of it more. I never saw the love in his eyes. Was I ever loved? It was fake. I know it. He had never loved me. I didn't know anything one year ago. All my parents did was just argue and most of the time I would go out. I never interfered because if I did I would have probably got a slap from my father. I wonder why he had hated me so much. Was it because of Fiona? She didn't do anything wrong it was her twin brother! I hate him. I Wonder when she will reply to my letters. It hurts seeing my only bff not responding. I had known her from like year 7. I met her brother at year 8. That was a mistake. I wish I had never met him. All he wants is revenge. 

"Ouch!!" I cried as I hit a wall. Wait there aren't any walls here. I looked up to meet a pair of gloomy eyes. Great I thought to myself. He is gonna embarrass me again. 

Before I could say anything he cut me off saying "That word is becoming quite common with you."

'And your mouth is becoming quite irritating' is what I wanted to say to him. I started walking away when he shouted "Do not be late to my class Miss Falke" 

After rushing through the some corridors I found Abs and Lewis. I practically threw myself at abs as she hugged me back. She was about to say something when my phone rang "Girliee!"Sophia screamed. I had to hold the phone away from my ear.

"Calm down girl." I said.

I could sense that she had rolled her eyes and I said "Don't roll you eyes at me." 

"How do you know that I rolled my eyes at you." She mumbled 

"Anyways girl we are going shoppin tomorrow meet me at 1." She stated 

"Waittt what about my sister?" I asked. 

"You can leave her at your neighbours house right?" She asked

"Oh yeh. I can do that k then cya tomorrow GIRLLL" I shouted in the phone. I hung up while laughing as Abs and Lewis were watching me confused. "Don't worry about it." I said to them 

Abs then said "I have Mr Smiths class how about we meet up after?" 

"K" I replies. I ruffled Lewis hair on purpose while he groaned. Smirking I gave Abs a little hug and went off to Mr Levines class. He is probably my favourite teacher

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"AMEILLIA GET YOU LAZY FUCKING ASS DOWN HERE AND MAKE DINNER." He shouted. I flinched as I was putting Amara into my bed.

"Sweetheart I will be back soon. Can you be a big kid and sleep by yourself until I come back. Don't come down." I whispered while she nodded her head. I was making my dad steak while his eyes burned a hole through my back. Watching my every move. Barking commands. I made him Steak and put it on the table. "ITS RAW YOU DUMBASS! I HAVE A STUPID AND USELESS DAUGHTER WHO CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT!" 

With that he pushed me on the floor. I winced in pain as I crashed onto the floor. his steel boot slammed into my stomach. I screamed in pain. He seemed to like that watching me beg for mercy. Beg him to stop. He loved seeing me in pain. He loved seeing me hopeless. Tears streamed down my face as he bunched my dress and picked me up. Using his free hand he punched me as I begged him to stop. After a while he stopped and left to find another bar. I crawled up to my room. Like usual I smothered myself in bruising cream and plastered my face. I winced in pain every time I walked.

Tears spilled from Amara's face as she woke up. I ran to sit next to her. "Hey, what's wrong?" I cooed.

"I had dream. You and dada fight and you never wake up." She sobbed. 

My eyes widened. "Baby don't worry I will always be here for you." I reassured her "Come here." 

I laid my baby sister on top of my and started singing to calm her down "Hush little baby don't you cry everything is gonna be alright." 

I sung while rocking her to sleep. The thoughts spun around my head the question was i ever loved made me want to cry. I knew the answer to it. The answer is no. I was not ever loved. "My baby, you will be loved and your future is going to be bright and it will not be like mine goodnight princess." 

With that I went to bed.

Sorry for the short chapter. I will try and post another one soon!