Only for you// Minsung

Chapter 7~

~Mimiluves_straykids~

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~Lee Minho~

I smiled at the boy and he just cocked an eyebrow, not knowing how to respond.

"Leave him alone, he looks uncomfortable." I scoffed at Seojin; he was annoying the fuck out of me. "Pay attention to the board Seojin I'm sure your grades need it." I snapped back and Seojin just frowned, turning back to the board with hesitance. 

Jisung turned to me looking upset.

~Han Jisung~

"What's your problem with him?"

"Don't get involved with him. Trust me." I frowned. "You can't tell me what to do with my life." 

He scoffed, his friendly demeanor gone as his cold and bitchy side returned. "I'm not telling you what to do, but you shouldn't get close to him."

"Why should I listen to you? Leave me alone." Minho crossed his arms. 

"I'm trying to tell you what you need to hear. All I'm trying to say is-"

 I huffed and interrupted him. "I don't care what you're trying to say. I won't listen." Minho scowled at me. "Whatever, it's not like I care if he fucks you up anyway. Maybe you deserve it."

I was surprised to hear him say that, he had always been cruel but this was different. Deeper. Without warning I felt hot tears streaming down my cheeks. 

~Lee Minho~

'Shit, I fucked up.'

"Wait Jisung I didn't-" He ignored me. He got up and went to sit next to Seojin. The teacher was going to yell at him but stopped when he saw the tears. The tears that I caused. I fucking did that.

Something I would have been proud of or even laughed at, made me feel like shit. It made me feel worse when as Seojin pulled him close and even kissed his head. I felt my stomach drop. Of course my anger had to get the best of me.

It still felt like my only defense. When I was at a loss of what to do anger took over. It's not like my parents did anything to help me anyway. I was raised by the tv. But my trauma isn't Jisung's problem. It wasn't an excuse either. Chan had trauma but he didn't treat people like shit.

I should stop trying to help if I can't be helpful.

~Christopher Chan~

I was trying to pay attention. But it was no avail when no matter how hard I attempted to focus, my brain continued to rack excuses to see Felix at lunch. Some thoughts even proposing the idea of sitting next to the gorgeous boy.

If I could flip a switch and make him mine I of course would. But I have to be realistic. I was getting some negative signs from him. Or at least signs of hesitance. I wanted to take him in my arms and make sure he never doubted anything ever again. Though realistically that wouldn't happen anytime soon, this morning was bold enough of me... right?

The lunch bell took me out of my thoughts. It was lunch time. 

~Lee Felix~

As soon as the bell rang, I was already walking to Jisung's class. I was of course shocked to see that his cheeks were tear stained once I got there. "Jisung?" He just hugged me, holding onto me tightly. A concerned Seojin soon walked out of the door, going to check on him.

"What happened?" I was trying to figure out what was going on. "It was M-Minho." Jisung's body shook as he sobbed. I watched as Minho walked out of the classroom and to the cafeteria, avoiding eye-contact.

"Look, he's not worth your tears okay? Jisung just nodded. "I know, but w-words hurt." I know... I know. Words do hurt." I went quiet, trying not to think about the memories that flashed through my head once again. 

We eventually broke our hug, walking to the cafeteria with our arms linked. After Seojin gave Jisung a hug and a kiss on the forehead, he went off to sit with his other friends. It was just me and Jisung. 

~Han Jisung~

I told Felix everything that happened, bringing him through the roller coaster of emotions the day had been already. He just looked at me with wide eyes. "Jisung, you know that you don't deserve anything like that right? You know Minho wasn't telling the truth?" That tugged at my heartstrings. "Of course, he's stupid." I smiled at Felix and he smiled back. Felix hugged me and I hugged him back. But when he couldn't see  my face anymore my smile dropped.

Part of me thought what Minho said was true. I thought that i deserved lots of bad things pretty often. Sometimes even death. But I couldn't tell Felix this. Just like I couldn't tell him that my cuts aren't from my dog. Or about who took advantage of me in the stall. He's called Sunshine for a reason. I'll only dull down his light.

I made eye contact with Minho when these thoughts ran through my head. I ignored him, despite noticing he looked a bit concerned. I'm sure it was an act anyway. He might be a dancer, but he was also friends with Hyunjin who was top of his acting class. I forced a smile back on my face before pulling out of the hug to look at Felix.

~Lee Minho~

He was faking it. I knew he was. He wasn't happy or okay, but he was pretending to be. I needed to be honest with myself, I don't have an ounce of hate for Jisung. In fact, if anything I have a sweet spot for him. How could I hate him? He's Jisung. Anyone around him is bound to fall in love.

I contemplated getting up to talk to him. I knew he probably didn't want to talk to me right now, but I had to tell him about Seojin. I didn't give myself any more time to ponder, instead just letting my legs lead the way. I got up ignoring when anyone asked me where I was going. 

I was halfway to Jisung when Seojin stepped in front of me. "Have you not done enough?" I sighed. "I'm going to apologize. Move." 

"No."

~End~

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