Gaege pov:
I wake up with another person in my bed. I slowly open my eyes and quickly notice that it's Eddie. I blush as I start to sit up. Was i- was I cuddling with him? I shake my head before fully getting out of bed. I grab a new change of clothes before walking to the bathroom. The house is quite so I'm assuming that I'm the first one up. Were all staying at Eddie's since Josh and mully are visiting, "it's so we can bond more." Is the only reason Eddie gave when he brought up the idea. He doesn't even have enough rooms for all of us to have our own privacy. I mean I got my own room so I can't complain, I think Josh and mully are the only ones sharing..with separate beds of course.
After I get undressed I step into the cold shower. I shiver at first but I'll eventually get used to it. As I rub my body with soap I feel my wrist sting. I look down and instantly remember the cuts that I made yesterday. Fuck, why are they unwrapped? Did Eddie see them? Shit. I quickly finish my shower and get dressed. I look at myself in the mirror, disappointed in myself. What happened yesterday wasn't even that serious, they were just joking, there's no real reason why I cut myself....I guess I'm just being dramatic.
I walk back to the guest room with my head pounding. I don't bother looking for anything to help the headache go away, I'm still tired from last night. I lay back in bed, resting my head on the pillow.
I lay there for a few hours until I feel Eddie staring to get up. I watch as he slowly sits up and rubs his eyes with the palm of his hands. He turns to look at me and smiles.
"Morning." He smiles
"Morning.." I try to smile back
"You okay?" He questions as I start to sit up myself
"Yeah, my head is pounding though."
"Why didn't you get aspirin or something?" He laughs as he shakes his head
"I was too tired."
"Your so dumb." He smiles as he finally gets out of bed
"Yeah, I know." I whisper to myself
"Huh?" He turns to look at me
"Nothing."
We both get up and walk into the kitchen. Eddie hands me an aspirin and a cup of water.
"Do you want some coffee?" He asks
"Yeah, sure."
After he makes coffee I pull out my phone to order us some food. I would order food for the whole house but I don't know when there going to be up. As I take another sip from my coffee I can tell that Eddie is starting at my wrist. Fuck, what the fuck did he see. I don't remember much from the bar last night and I definitely don't remember anything once we got home so I don't know if I told him anything.
"Gaege, I um, I have a question.." Eddie says after taking a deep breath
"Shoot." I say in a happy go lucky voice
One of the good things about the videos that we do is that I got good at acting like nothing is wrong. Sure, I play a lot of the dumb characters but most of them are happy. I got good at pretending.
"Last night when we got home I took my bandana off your wrist and um, and I saw something that I don't think you wanted anyone to see." He nervously rubs the back of his neck
I freeze. Fuck, he actually saw. I feel like I can't breathe, I'm panicking. This is just like when Grant saw them except fucking worse.
"D-did you?" I stutter
"Are you sure you weren't just seeing things because I just wore your bandana to add something to my outfit." I say playfully
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Helping You Through This
FanfictionGaege has struggled with self harm and depression a lot in his life and as he gets closer to what seems like the end he finds a light at the end of the tunnel.
