Eddie pov:
I wake up and get changed before walking out of my room and heading to the kitchen. I decided to let Gaege sleep in for a bit longer as I cook him breakfast. I open the fridge and start to panic. I don't know what to make him. I know that I should make him something easy and small but I don't know what's crossing the line of too much. I don't want him to fear that he has to eat everything on his plate but I also don't want to waste food.
"You look scared of the fridge." Grant laughs as he takes a seat at the dinner table
"I am." I frown as I close the fridge door
"I want to make Gaege something to eat but I don't know what would be too much for him."
"Just ask him what he wants."
"He'll just say that he's not hungry. He needs to eat something." I'm just now realizing that Gaege has only told me about his eating problems. I can't tell Grant too much about it but I'm sure that he can tell that somethings up
"Do you have any fruit?" Grant opens the fridge
"Yeah, I think I have some." I peek over his shoulder
I decided to cut up some strawberries and bananas. Its not much but hopefully because it's fruit he'll eat some of it. By the time I'm done eating Gaege still haven't woken up. I take the bowl of fruit to our room and place it on his bedside table. I gently shake him awake.
"Morning." I smile as he starts to rub his eyes
"Morning." He yawns
"I have breakfast for you." I smile
"O-oh..." He has a worried expression on his face
"It's nothing big." I hand him the bowl of fruit
"You don't have to eat it all but I'd like to see you take a bite." I place my hand on his thigh
"Thank you for bringing it in here." He puts the bowl in his lap
"Fuck, this is hard to look at." He almost whispers
I move from the bed to sitting on the floor in front of him.
"What are you doing?"
"You said that it's hard to look at the food so now you can look at me while you eat." I smile
"Fuck, your adorable." He smiles back
Gaege takes his time eating but I don't care, he ate the whole bowl of fruit and I couldn't be more happy. I will never know how much of a struggle this is for him but I can at least be proud of the little things.
"I don't know why your so proud of me." Gaege laughs as I wrap my arms around his waist
"I just ate a bowl of fruit, babys eat this every morning."
"This is the most I've seen you eat since...well since ever so I'm taking this as a big win." I rest my head on his lap
"Are you sure you don't find this embarrassing? I mean I'm a grown man struggling to eat a bowl of fruit. Isn't that just a little sad?"
"It's not your fault that your like this." I look up at him
"You've been through some shit and now you have to work through your struggles. It's sad that you have to go through this but I'm here to help you work through this, that's part of my boyfriend duties. If I want to keep my boyfriend of the year card then I'm willing to do whatever it takes to help you."
Gaege looks at me with a smile before tears start to roll down his cheeks. I quickly frowns and stand up and pull him into a hug
"Why are you crying?" I ask, worried that I said something wrong
"Your the best boyfriend ever." His voice is muffled
"I know." I smile
After some time Gaege leaves the room to get dressed. He soon walks back in the room and I smile once I realize that he's wearing on of my hoodies. He sits on my lap and pulls me into a kiss. I smile once he pulls away. We stay like this for a few minutes before leaving our room and walk out into the living room. We're met with all of the boys sitting on the couch watching TV.
"The boyfriends are finally out!" Josh laughs as he makes room for us on the couch
"Shut up." I blush as I take a seat on the couch
There isn't enough room for all of us so gauge has to sit on my lap. He said that he's fine with sitting of the floor but I'd just feel bad so I forced him in my lap. He said that he would rather have me in his lap but I know that I'd crush him.
"What are we doing for our video today?" Mully asks
"I was thinking we could do drunk Mario cart. It got a lot of views last time so we might as well do it again." I say
"Sounds good. We should start in a hour or so." Mully says
"Do we have to go out and buy alcohol?" Josh asks
"Yeah, who wants to go out and buy it?" I ask
"I can drive us someone wants to come with me." Grant stands up to get his keys from the kitchen
"I'll go." Josh and mully say at the same time
"Okay, both of you can come." Grant walks out the door, Josh and mully following behind
"Are you fine with the video idea?" I ask Gaege
"Yeah, I'm totally going to kick your ass." He smiles
Before the boys came back from the store I had Geage have a small snack just so that he has something in his system before getting drunk. Once the boys came back we instantly started the recording.
~time skip to after da rec.~
Once the recording was done Josh and mully decided to keep drinking as Grant went to bed. I'm not too drunk but I definitely don't plan on drinking more. Gaege has a few beers before calling it quits. He's clearly drunk out of his mind but that was expected.
"Your so pretty ~" Gaege smiles as he lays down next to me on the couch
"Yeah?" I smile back
"Mhm~" he nuzzles his face into my chest
"Thank you."
"Uh, for what?" I told my head
"For not laughing at me when I told you about my struggles." He lift up his head and looks down at his wrist
"And for not making me feel like shit all of the time." He smiles
"Of course, I love being here for you." I smile as he nuzzles his face into the crook of my neck
"I told my mom about you."his voice is muffled
"She thinks that your good for me. "You finally found the one" is what she told me the last time I talked about you."
"Y-you told your mom about me?" I blush
"Y-yeah." He hiccups
"It's kinda embarrassing but I love talking about you."
I can feel my face heat up. He's so cute and I can't believe that I'm lucky enough to call him my boyfriend. I honestly wish that we started dating sooner. I can honestly see myself living the rest of my life with this man.
"I'm getting tired." He yawns
"Then let's go to bed."
Gaege crawls off of me so I can stand up. Before he's able to get off of the couch I pick him up and carry him to our room. I rest him on our bed and he instantly shuts his eyes.
"Baby, do you want to change out of your jeans so your more comfy? I know you don't like to sleep in jeans." I ask as I walk to my closet
"Yes please." His voice is soft
He starts to stand up but instantly falls back into the bed.
"Your drunk and tired, if you want I can change for you." It still feels weird to change his clothes when's he's asleep so I like to ask him before hand
"Mk." He smiles as he lays down
By the time i walk over to him he's fast asleep. I change him out of his jeans and move him so that he's in a more comfortable position. I get dressed into my pajamas before crawling into bed and snuggling up next to Gaege.
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Helping You Through This
FanfictionGaege has struggled with self harm and depression a lot in his life and as he gets closer to what seems like the end he finds a light at the end of the tunnel.
