The Year of the Revolution VIII. The Return to Innocence

11. Challenge

Sev and Sirius cried for a while, hugging each other. Remus remained silent, maintaining absolute discretion.

Now we do have reconciled, Sev thought. By doing something like this he more than pays his debt and we seal a pact of eternal friendship, I already consider him on the same level as Remus. Who could have said it? My tormentors are becoming my best friends.

I really want to tell him that I wanted to become a Death Eater and feel forgiven by him too. And something else, tell them both about Lauren, I can do it without revealing who she is. They will understand in a few words like Lily thing, they will not ask me for more explanations than I can give them and they will also give me good advice. I'm going to talk about both things.

When he calmed down, Black said to him, still hugging him, "Well, then you are in charge of talking to the old man about the subject, so that he can inform himself at the Ministry and tell me what I should do before the term ends, or you can tell me in the summer, in case I have to go to the Ministry during it. Hopefully we can get it up and running next year."

"Okay, Sirius, I'll talk to him and we'll do it like this."

"If you already know something, tell me next Saturday at the Quidditch match."

"Even if James comes?"

"Of course, even if James comes," the Gryff replied. "I haven't told him anything yet because I wanted to talk about it with you first, but I plan to tell him if you agree."

"Okay, you can tell him if you want."

"I won't tell him about Lily's Potions position."

"No, not that, for the moment," Sev answered.

"Well, it wouldn't be bad if he knew the whole truth about the subject."

"But it would be revealing to him in a way that Lily and I have been in contact all year, and I think he would feel betrayed. We are going to stop seeing each other throughout the summer, I prefer to wait until next year, when I can strengthen the relationship with him more and perhaps he has found another person, to tell him the truth, or perhaps never tell him, so that he thinks it was you and Remus who have helped me get her back."

"Very well, very clever, we will do it as you see fit," Black agreed. "I also wanted to talk to you about finding another person for James."

"Okay, but we'll leave it for later, first I want to tell you something."

"Go ahead."

Sev separated from Sirius, who continued to hold him by his shoulders. He said to him, looking into his eyes, "I want to tell you something about myself that Remus already knows and you deserve to know too."

"You don't need to tell me anything, Sev," denying, very sweet. "I already know what you're going to tell me."

"You say it, then."

Black sighed. How intuitive he is, he can already guess everything just by looking at me, Sev thought.

"No, I don't want you to think about it now, I don't want to make you feel bad," Sirius said.

"But I need to clarify that between us."

"Okay, I'll say it. You could have been on the other side."

He has been kind enough not to mention the fateful word, thought Sev. "That is."

"When did the idea occur to you?"

"After the Shrieking Shack."

"Dreaming of taking revenge on us," the Gryff deduced.

"Indeed."