We sat down at a table together. Meghan and David talk about their own conversation, I'm focused looking at the menu, my stomach bubbling a bit as I lick my bottom lip. I'm still recovering from hearing that I'm pregnant. But how will my friends think? I'm feeling overwhelmed.
Meghan looks over at me, she sighs, "Joey what's going on? You look anxious," She says concerned, David looks over at me.
"I'm fine really. I'm just tired, that's all." I lie. But they didn't believe me, their faces looking annoyed, now, I'm stuck knowing I'll have to tell the truth one way or another. Of course admitting this to my best-friends is terrifying, what would they think? They could seriously kick me out or something. They can't deal with a crying baby in the small apartment, I'm basically screwed for my life.
"Joey you know you can talk to us about anything. You've been acting strange for a few hours, can you tell us what's going on?" Her eyes were filled with concern, which is melting me. I feel terrible, because I lied to them, acted like I'm fine, when I'm not.
This is the moment. To be honest without covering it with excuses. I let out a breath, I see David looking at me with patience.
"Well um.... I'm pregnant," The words slip out, Meghan's face lit up, eyes widen with shock but excitement but worry at the same exact time.
"Pregnant? Oh my god! I am so happy for you of course.. but who's the father and what happened?!" All at once she rambles, trying to figure me out it seems, David looked surprised but worried.
A sad ting got to me. The father of this baby won't be known, he'll be casted away to be some drunken one night outer, "That party. Some guy named Sean? had sex with me that night without protection." I'm blunt right now due to my heavy thoughts storming my brain, Meghan and I are close in a way we can talk, but I'm not sure how she'll feel about this.
They both looked at me before she covers her mouth before drooping her hand to grip her cup. I'm here tearing up, I'm surprised they immediately weren't angry, maybe it's my anxiety that makes me overthink everything.
"I'm sorry Joey that's difficult, just know me and David have your back," She warmly smiles at me, everything felt calmer but a wave of everything hits again.
"I thought you guys would've kicked me out, I mean... in 9 months I'm going to have a baby.. wouldn't that be hard for you guys to handle hearing?" For a minute she almost looks in thought, processing what I've said. Her face dims, before smiling again at me, which makes me in relief but at the same time not.
David looks back, "Joey my sister wouldn't ever do that to you, your her best-friend." He reminds me as I smile slightly at them.
"I know... I'm just, thinking about Sean. Who is he and why he just abandoned me that night," I whisper looking down at the bright-wood table, I know their eyes are casted on me, concern mostly in Meghan's expression, "A dumb one night stand, he regrets.."
They both look determined but mainly worried about me, understanding though at the same time. I'm getting tired of sitting here.
A bit later after lunch, I went home and to the kitchen. I'm standing here trying to think all this through. Then my phone buzzed, it was Shane.
'Hey Joey, how are you?'
I turn my phone off leaving him on read, I'm tired at the moment, so I get to my room and sit on my bed exhausted.
How am I going to explain this to my parents? my sister?
YouTube most of all. How are my fans going to think? A man that can get pregnant. Oh, all the negative things bunging in my head.
I'm faced with the consequences, drinking and not thinking about anything that could happen. I didn't know I'll be capable of getting that drunk to the point I'm pregnant now.
It hit me, my best-friend Whitney is always there for me, she's my supporter, we've been through thick n thin, and I know she'll help me. So I call her, as she immediately answers.
"Hi Whitney." I whisper nervously.
"Hi Joey, oh.. you sound upset, what's up?" Her voice turned softer, with worry.
I let my breath out, "I got some news. Like, I'm not sure good news or bad,"
"Okay? Tell me,"
"I'm pregnant." I admit.
She went silence before gasping, "Pregnant?! When did you find out?!" Her questions continue, wanting more information.
"A drunken mistake at a party, the guy named Sean left me a note and ran, next day I'm vomiting before it gotten worse, the pains. The doctor proved I'm pregnant. I don't know what to do Whitney, I'm terrified." I let everything out to her. My eyes tear up, I'm about to cry, maybe bawl everything out of my eyes.
"Oh lord... Joey I'm here for you okay? I know it's scary and rough, but I'm here for you. I can come over if you want me too, I have your back." She lets me know, supporting me as I wipe my tears from my cheeks, trying not to cry more.
"Thanks Whitney. Will you be there for me... when time grows..?" I asked.
"Joey you know I will. I know we had our little arguments in the past, including the Luke situation, but you are my closest friend, I'm not going to betray you, I'm here for you and that baby." She speaks truthfully, her voice confident but strong of warmth.
With that, I'm feeling a bit better than I was before. Whitney and Meghan, they are there for me. Including David, I'm not completely alone.
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Fanfiction𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐍𝐄 * Joey makes a mistake about having a drink with a few popular people. This mistake causes trouble and changes in his life that he can never forgive or forget. He has to struggle to find a way to cope with his pain and trauma, wh...
