Forgive me

One: Just Coffee?

I'm facing my close-friend Meghan Camarena, also her brother David on the couch watching some paranormal show. I'm not dividing my attention to it because I'm editing a video for my subscribers right now, while Meghan tells me about her morning so far, and how she took Chewy to the vet due to his bowel issues. They look okay now though, he's been eating also running around barking annoyingly for the past hour waiting for treats. They spoil him, really bad. 

I quickly sit beside Meghan before checking my phone, only fan tweets and normal notifications, nothing radical. She huffs loudly as my head lifts slowly, seeing her eyeing me, nothing else. Her hands relaxed, while eyes staring teasingly at me, her beautiful brown-cinnamon hair laced down to to her shoulders, she likes her hair long. 

"Didn't you owe me a coffee today?" She asked reminding me of my deal yesterday when she won the game. She beat me, I bet her coffee and sadly I lost. 

I smile playfully before parting my lips to reply, "Oh I must've forgot, It's to late now hm?" Her eyes squint in annoyance before crossing her arms, she frowned at me like a small child who can't get a toy from the store. 

"Come on! You gave me this deal, I won and you are supposed to give me my reward," She whines as David rolls his eyes playfully in the background, his hands rushing to badger his laptop keyboard, while mine downloads the last final video rendering each transition, text and other stuff put into it. 

"Okay fine but do you want to go or stay?" She puts her finger against her hand before looking at me indecisively. 

"You go, I'll stay. You know what I want." Her grin makes me snarl quietly to myself, not in a mean way though. I walk to the front door, and beside it hooked a small latch containing key's and jackets, I grab my car keys and wave them goodbye before leaving quickly, they can wait until I'm back. 

I'm grateful that I have Meghan. She accepted me to live with her and her brother, until I'm ready to leave within a few years. David of course is nice to me, but we aren't super close like me and his sister. Through the platform online; YouTube, she has messaged me with bunch of compliments and conversations, instantly, I knew she'll be a good friend to me, we both have similar common likes, also shows and foods. She also hates pranks, that sucks to be her when I'm living with them. 

 Anyway I'm in the city of California trying to find a good coffee place, the usual one we go to, It's nearby the fancy they call McDonalds, the only nice looking one here. I've seen plenty normal ones during tours, Cali's is just fancy. I'm not a big fan of that anyway, It's unhealthy. Although David likes to eat that for dinner whenever he doesn't want to make something. Or Meghan loves buying pizza or Chinese, I don't mind that though. I dislike cheese though, on anything or in it. 

After the errands and coffee. I just sat in my car pulling the drinks in the holders, one for me and her. I need one so I'm awake. I always drift away while editing or doing something online, so caffeine keeps me on survival mode. 

Immediately my phone binged, It was Shane. Probably to remind me of collaboration we have to do later. My fingers nudged the screen, as my reply was sent. When I'm with Shane, I feel something strange, almost like butterflies, I'm not sure how it feels, or what I'm on about but my stomach feels loose. He's my friend though and been there for me, whenever I was sad or something he always helped me by distracting me. 

I'm back trying to drive back. I should've went out more, but I need to give Meghan her coffee before anything. 

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"Oh that was fun Joey," Shane said as I look at him with a soft-gentle smile, trying not to look embarrassing as I take a swig of the orange juice he poured for me, "Maybe we can think of another collaboration video we can do." I don't mind doing these collab's with him, he is funny plus my subscribers like the friendship we have, although our ship names is Shoey. I'm not sure why they have a ship name, but they do. 

"Of course Shane I'm up for anything." I smiled looking at him as his eyes locked into mine before eyeing the television again, family guy was airing at the moment. Never was a big fan of the show, but I know he is. 

Until his dog Corny jumps on me, startling me as I giggle as the dog gave me kisses, Shane laughed noticing the situation, "Corny leave Joey alone! You gave enough kisses you slut!" He joked as I check the time on my phone, It's almost five o'clock at night. I need to get home and make me some dinner. 

"I think I'm going to go home, I need to make dinner and edit the video," I get up grabbing my camera stuffing it into my carry-on bag, he looks up a little disappointed or at-least I'm reading it off his facial expression, "I'll text you later, Shane, okay?" He walks me to the door as he helps me with my belongings. 

"Alright, no hitting cars got it?" Shane glared teasingly at me,

I roll my eyes, "I promise I won't, I'm a good driver." And then I left. The outside air was warm but beautiful, the crickets chirping and the mourning dove hollering echoed waved through the surroundings. Nature is beautiful in it's own way, unique and relaxing. I've been fascinated with the outside world since my teenage years, maybe to get out of the alcoholic house I've been trapped in for so long. Besides, my childhood Isn't a happy tree, it's more complicated that leaves me sorrowing to worry about my mother. I haven't talked to her in a while though, I hope she's doing okay. 

Home Sweet Home; nothing more to be comfortable walking through the front door, noticing only Meghan playing with Chewy on the floor but a carpet keeping her comfortable. Oh that dog and her really have a bond, maybe sibling like. 

"How was you and Shane?" She asked noticing me as I shut the door behind me, I settle my key's down as I cackle, oh funny? weird? All of those things but he has humor, maybe a dark sense of humor, I find that interesting. 

"It was good, we just recorded a video together and hung out." I answered shortly as I brush my stuff to the side of the couch, Chewy started barking at my presence before wagging his tail like a angry fox, this dog will be the death of me!

"Oh Joey did you and Shane ever really hang out outside of recording?" Her arms crossed while looking at me like a angry parent, I look at her confused. 

"Yeah we went to the movie's a week ago, we saw a new Disney movie that came out," I let out a cough trying to hide my annoyance, but, In a best friend way, "Why? Do you think I use him for views?" 

She shook her head, "No it's just you never tell me anything about you and Shane. It's just you recording." She sat down on the couch seeing Chewie play with his bone. 

"I'm just to myself Meg, you know this."

"I told you to stop calling me, Meg. What type of nickname is that?!" She huffed before looking at me with a slight grin, she's just Meghan, very much Meghan. 

"The one that suits you for short—" I've faced a pillow before it went right on my feet, pillow fight now? I grab another and wack her in the face, she screams trying to kick me away but not to hard.