Mistake Or Fate ?

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Hoseok quieted down gulping down his sob.

He squeezed Yoongi's hand in his .

Yoongi gave him small smile before he wiped away Hoseok's tears.

"I didn't give up on treatment...I wanted to return to you ...(Chuckle )but I was late.."

"Yoongi I -"

"I won't blame you Hosoek. All I hope for ever was to see you happy and healthy and that you were. So my decision was right.
You were reason I fought so hard to live Hoseok.
When nothing worked on me..I felt my heart shatter but during those times I would flip through our photos...and videos and I would wish for things to be like that again. I fought cause I wanted to live those moments again with you.

It was hard time but atleast I had you in my heart . And that was all I needed

While We were switching hospitals after hospital..... switching from one treatment to other....as everything was failing....I found myself surrounded by darkness Hoseok...I felt so restless Hoseok...there...it was haunting...to see you there....but no matter ...how much I tried to reach I would fail.

I didn't knew what to do .
Each passing day was a war .
Each passing day my willness to live and hope would perish a little .

Doctor suggested I  start chemo therapy.

So I did....I cried a lot when they shaved my hair Hoseok.....I remember how much you loved them....I missed you a lot Hoseok ...but I was relieved to know you were not suffering with me.

Atleast you were healthy and happy.

In that hope I passed 3 years there in hospital.

I finally recovered enough and I was discharge out of hospital.

I was happy I thought I could return to you soon.

But again Destiny played joke on me and I relapsed

Again I was admitted to hospital.

And for next 2 years I kept moving in and out of hospital.

And finally the day came when I was free .

I wished to return to you Hoseok but I couldn't I had obligation towards my father.

You know I hated him for controlling my life so much but during those years of hardship I saw a side of him that younger me failed to see.

I cried to you many times saying how my father didn't love me and would always scold me...those years made me realise how wrong I was ...my father stood by  my side Hoseok...everyday he used to tell me how much he loved me and how much of brat I was and how much trouble I have caused him that he can't imagine his life without trouble now.

Yoongi laughs little.

I could never pay him back not in this life time or ever Hoseok. I owe him so much so I started helping him grow business.

I tried reaching to you all those years but I couldn't. I even wrote you letters Hoseok ...each and every day I did until one day I stopped.

I thought maybe you had find your Happily ever after and was happy so I decided to let go ...but I couldn't...the moment I saw you in Kim Mansion...I became greedy for you ..your love...I hated seeing you laugh with Taehyung...I hated seeing you so in love with him ..but It's my fate to love you from far so be it."

Hoseok let out laugh.
A laugh that was no where filled with warmth but bitterness .

His laugh soon turn into uncontrollable sobs as he pushed his face into embrace of Yoongi.