Really and Always, Truly and Forever~(Jeremike)

Chapter 45

--(Mikes POV)--

I didn't get in my truck trying to find him.... He couldn't have gone far..

I ran out out of the house, listening for noises that would help me find him. Then... I heard it..

"Why does l-life h-hate me...?" It was a soft whimper, but I know I heard it. I turned on my heel and dashed in the direction of the noise.

I saw my Jerebear in the distance, sitting on the grass of the nearby park. His knees where tucked into his chest as he cried, and one of his knees was spilt open pretty badly.

Once I got a little closer, I started calmly walking, even though I was a mess... How could I have hurt Jeremy..? Even after I promised I wouldn't...!

Jeremy looked up and saw me. His eyes widened and he cried a bit more. My heart shattered.

I got close enough to almost touch him, when he screamed something I never wanted to hear from him...

"Don't touch me!"

"Jeremy, please... Can we talk..?" I said, sadly. Jeremy looked away.

"W..we have n-nothing to t-talk about..."

"Well... Could you just listen then..? Please..?" I almost beg. My loving boyfriend was mad at me, and it broke my heart...

"...I...I guess..." Jeremy said quietly. But then he added. "But y..you b-better not be e-expecting me to f-forgive you..."

"Jeremy... I'm not expecting anything from you right now... I knew I should've warned you about my.. um... Blanks... There little things I get when I don't know what I'm doing, because I have no control of my body. I'm not expecting you to believe me, I'm honestly waiting for you to scream at me for being the worst boyfriend ever, and for you to break up with me...." My voice started cracking, against my wishes. "But... Could you please just.. Just look at me...?"

Jeremy's body was frozen, looking the other direction. He made no action to face me.

After a few minutes, he looked at me, and the rest of my heart shattered. His eyes where red and puffy, and there was a light pink hand mark on the side of his face.

"Jeremy, remember how I PROMISED I wouldn't hit you on purpose..? Well, that wasn't on purpose... Please, could you forgive me and come home so I could bandage your knee...?" I asked calmly.

"I..I'm sorry... I'm just h-having a hard t-time b-believing you r-right now..." He stuttered. His lip quivered, and he broke out sobbing. He leaned over and started sobbing into my sweater, and I stroked his hair again.

"Shh... It's okay... I'm so sorry, Jerebear... I'm so fucking sorry...." I said quietly into his hair. Hugging his body closer, grateful he was coming anywhere near me right now.

"S..Shut up.. Just.. S-stop a-apologizing..." He cried quietly into my chest. I stopped talking, another then the occasional 'shh.. It's okay Jeremy'.

I just wished I knew if our relationship would be okay...

--(Jeremy's POV)--

Decisions, decisions, decisions...

That's what was burning in my brain at the moment.

I loved Mike.. I truly did... But I don't want to have a risk of getting hurt looming over me..

"M...Mike...?" I sobbed quietly. He looked down at me with a sad expression on his face, a scared/ sad look in his eyes.

"Yes, Jeremy..?" He asked quietly. I knew what he was thinking... He was thinking I was breaking up with him, right..?

"C..Can we g..go h-home now...?" I said softly, looking up at his shocked expression now.

"D..does this mean you'll forgive me...?" He asked, helping me stand up. I wrapped my arm around his waist and he put his arm around my shoulder, and we started walking.

I gave him a small smile. "It m-means I'll f-forgive you..."

(A/N)
HERE HAVE SOME FLUFFY JEREMIKE TO FIX YOUR FEELZ! SORRY FOR BREAKING THEM LAST TWO CHAPTERS!! ;-;

~_the_lone_virus_