We're such a mess together | Sanegiyu

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Giyuu's pov:

The hashira were meeting again, at the masters mansion. I sighed and took my place to the furthest end, far away from the real hashira. I didn't want to be near them, I didn't deserve to be. Especially not near him... no wonder Sanemi hates me, I mean even I can tell why he'd hate me.

As soon as I showed up, slightly after the others but not late, I could see a vein in his head pulsing in pure anger towards my very existence. I felt my heart clench as he scowled at me, did I really deserve this treatment from him?

Yeah. Of course you do, you don't even deserve to be alive right now, so don't be so picky with how your treated.

My ears ring as that familiar voice echos in my mind. I stand normally, my eyes slightly bugged out, it must have worried someone as I hear a sweet high pitched voice saying "Is Tomioka ok...? He looks a bit startled..." however another voice follows this one belonging to Sanemi.

"Nah leave him. It's normal for him to be weird don't you know? He's a creep and we all know it."

Yeah. I guess I am a creep, thanks for that Sanemi. I guess my ego was too big, thanks for flattening it.

The birds chirped in their canopies, a sweet melody that hummed through my ears, serving as a white noise as the meeting continued swiftly. It wasn't anything of note, just an update on the uppermoons and Kibutsuji.

As soon as the meeting was dismissed, I went to take my leave, hearing the hashira talk about hosting an event or party type thing at Tengens place.

I made my way for the exit but I felt a small person grab me by the sleeve of my haori. "Tomioka~ where are you going? Are you not attending the party later?" Shinobu questioned.

I thought about it for a few seconds, before realising that someone like me would ruin the atmosphere. "...Sorry Kocho I think it'd be best if I didn't attend. I'd ruin the atmosphere of the party." Her face noticeably darkened, wondering what I meant by that.

"Nonsense! You wouldn't, so I insist that you need to." She replies, I sighed at this and nodded.

After getting the details of the party I left for my estate to go and prepare, it'd be rude for a grimy disgusting being like me to intrude in the first place, especially if I'm unclean.

As I showered I winced at the water meeting my wrists. But I deserved it, even when the water turned a rusty shade.

I put on some casual clothing, of course not forgetting my haori to cover up all that I inflicted on myself.

"Why did Kocho have to be so persistent... aswell he's going to be there, and with the way things have been recently I think my heart will explode before I can even hold a conversation with him.." I say to myself like the lunatic I am.

I begin walking over to the sound estate, the moon was nigh, glistening among the stars as a radiant beam of false light. The leaves crunch under my feet as I walk, my mind wanders and no matter what it is, everything reminds me of him...

(Timeskip to the party!!!)

They welcome me in, I plan to be quiet and hide in the corner for the whole evening, but I doubt that will be possible. They all gather us into a circle, great time to play drinking games... A bottle.ia placed in the center and spun, if you don't want to kiss the person it lands on you take a shot. Seems simple enough to me.

Mitsuri spins it first, it lands on Rengoku and they awkwardly laugh and take a shot. Next to Mitsuri was Shinobu, so she next spun the bottle.

I was drifting off in my own world as I hear clapping, snapping me back to reality. Shinobu landed on me.

This was awkward.

She was blushing and seemed down for it, but I for some reason looked over at Sanemi, who seemed upset at it. Did he like Shinobu?

I wasn't sure what to do, Shinobu wanted to kiss me but after all these years I was pretty sure that... I'm gay.

I awkwardly grab my shot glass and take a swig, hearing Uzui yelling "OOOH" to stir up more drama. Surprisingly enough Sanemi seemed to be slightly happier after I turned down her attempt to kiss me... I wonder why.

A/N hi gang! This is my first story lmao so don't be too harsh on it. I'll try to upload a lot since it's summer holidays in the UK so I've got loads of free time if I'm not on Honkai Star Rail 24/7 smh I'm addicted fr.

Anyways I hope you all have a good day!!