Deadly Love

Just love her forever

Yessica reaches into her bag and hands me a black leathered book. As looks down at the book like it is the deepest darkest secret and walks away with looking at me. The leather is original and the paper is older than anything I have ever seen. As I enter the room my dad is snoring. I open the book and start to read the story:

Entry one
Today was bright and the flowers have just bloomed from a horrid winter. The air is so fresh and feels amazing to go out in a less heavy dress. Of course, I have upset the angels for not wanting to abide by their rules but my god why do we have to follow what he says and all thy holy shit. I'm over it. I want to be free. Like the girl I met at the river bank who had a short skirt on and her stomach was showing. Her hair was jet black and she had black makeup on. She is free from anyone. She wants me to meet up with her tomorrow at the holy gates. She says I must sneak out but not to tell a soul. I can't even tell my best friend Lucile.

Entry two
We went swimming she had me swim naked with her and at first I thought it was wrong but she said it was fine and no one was going to see us. We swam and swam around the lake. It started to get late and I decided that I needed to head back. I got out of the water naked and she came out after me. She asked if she could hug me naked and I agreed that it would be fine. I felt something in my stomach. Like a burning as well as a tingle between my legs. I don't understand what this is or was but I want to feel it again, only with her. She told me to come meet her in three days at the lake again but at night time.

Entry three
I almost slipped to Lucile about my plans with a woman, whose name I need to learn. I have hugged her naked and I don't even know her name.

Entry four
The holy says it is time that I leave to go have a mate. I don't want to go have a mate. I need to stay two more days to finally see her. But the holy isn't going to let me. What am I supposed to do?

Entry five
I decided I was leaving the holy gates and going to live outside of them and not let them force me to find a mate on the earth below. I will wait one more day to see her beautiful face again. I hope she will want me the way I think I want her. I don't know what this feeling is but I don't want it to go away. Please don't let it go away.

Entry six
She arrived and didn't even let me explain anything she just took my hands and guided me
Down to earth. She has dark hair and green honey eyes. Her body is slim but has muscle. She is, idk what she is but I want her bad. We found a house that she bought and we laid naked. She didn't let us do anything but rub each other. My hand at first rubbed her belly and then she grabbed my breast. Not forcefully but gently. She creased my nipples and the biting in my stomach really started to make me wet between my legs. Which I didn't know was a thing. She told me that we can touch each other but we can't fully feel each other till I am ready. But I am ready. I want her to have me. Whatever that means. I'm an angel and I just, I don't know what this is.

Entry seven
She took me out to a nice place where we watched the moon rise. She told me she loved me but she still won't give me her name. She took me back home and told me to get naked. I undress in front of her. She doesn't wear dresses like I do she wears suits like the men do in the streets. She tells me to sit on her lap naked. I would do anything for her. She finally put her finger in my hole down there. She was not naked at first just me. Then she had me lay down on my stomach so she could lay on top of me. Her vagina was on my but and she slid her fingers back between my legs she did this several times. She wouldn't let me touch her. She told me to cum and keep cumming for her.

Entry 12
Nell's said that we need to have him in our bed. We needed to sleep with him and I needed to let him inside of me. She will be right here the whole time. This man came in and Nell's touched me and then this guy came on top of me. My body was shaking. I don't know why I agreed to this. He shoved his thing in me and it hurt and I wanted it to stop but then it started to feel good when Nell's started to caress my clit she was under me well he was on top of me. She kept telling me to open up to him and let him fuck me. Which felt dirty. I felt dirty but how do I tell her I don't want to do that again? I want her to love me.