Deadly Love

Careful with your healing

Dark rooms and comfy beds are where life should be lived in. A tight arm around your waist and a boy snuggled into the back of your neck. I can live here forever. Damian's chest goes up and down against my back letting me know he is in heavy sleep. I start to slowly turn towards him and I am so close to kissing him when A knock on the door interrupts this moment and I feel grumpy about it but I know we have to break the little riddle Yessica has left to me to figure out. I need a wise soul and I need a possibly an enemy but Nell is my only enemy so many two wise and old. Ugh, why is it that there always have to be riddles, when they can just say kill this person it will help you succeed? "Nubia I need you up and dressed. Then come to my office. I need you to read an entry." Mom says with no emotion. I just nod because I am exhausted from being probed. Damian shuffles a little. He has to be exhausted from having to wake me up almost every hour to kiss me and provide soul dust to keep whatever is going on inside me at bay. We almost had sex but I couldn't. The vision of what Nell did to Yessica and made me touch myself comes rushing in and it makes me feel like I can't move further. Damian was so understanding and cuddled me till the shaking stopped and I slipped into my dreams of moonlight and a lake.

Coffee in hand and food on the table my mom even has the book out for me where she marked an entry. She is ready for another journal well she sips coffee. The sip is a little loud and I look at her and smile because I know she is doing it because not only is she reading she is in deep thought. I'm also feeling like I must be here with her cause she needs to make sure I don't go off the deep end. The coffee is brewed perfectly and just enough sweet cream in it that I can't help but smile. I pick up a piece of bacon and get ready to read the entry. There aren't numbers on this one. It is labeled Nubia.
Nubia,
Your soul was like fire and full of life. You never left my hand naked. You always kissed me and told me how amazing of a person I was. You never didn't invite me anywhere and I was ready to live with you and Ezikel. I was ready for my life to be whole with you two. I think I was falling in love with Ezekiel as well. He is so kind and full of love for you. But not all fairytales can be lived and you guys were not my happy need. Because I watched her murder you. I even knew that she was going to do it she made love to me that night but she did this thing. I don't even know how to explain it. Her eyes swirled and she told me she was going to take you out. She told me that I was going to agree and that I was never to see you again. It's all my fault. I told her that you could change me and I didn't need her anymore. She didn't like that answer. She didn't like you. She murdered you in front of everyone because she knew that if I didn't stay by her side she wouldn't have souls anymore. I let her murder you and I didn't let you take her soul. It was the first time Nell became violent with me. She hurt me badly because I hid you away from her. I made her eyesight go black and had Ezikel hide you. We worked together because we loved you, Nubia. I can't believe I did this to you. But you are worth every risk. Nell said you will be recanted and she will make sure you take you away from me. She said she already saw your soul coming back around in the universe. That she could smell you. She said she would finally have the soul she needed to take out everyone and become the most powerful soul but little did she know that. I have friends in higher places. Ezekiel got in touch with Damian and we created a plan to have her get close enough to him without her catching on to him being able to change your fate and he erased you from her memory. As long as you didn't get too close to her you should be fine. So if we ever run into one another in the further I will do everything in my power to make sure she will Berber get to you. I promise you, Nubia. Even if we become friends in the future I just need you in my life. You make me whole. Until we meet again.

Yessica

I haven't even finished the bacon in my hand because I have two people to chew out. Two people have been hiding this information from me this whole time. How much more do they know? Could we have saved me from all this trouble and from everything that happened? Ugh, I can't believe that every time I think I can believe these people are my friends they are always hiding something from it. I'm fucking sick of being in the dark and I want the fucking truth even if that means I beat it out of him. My hands slime on the table and my legs hit the chair for it to slide and it slams down on the ground. I'm ready to walk out of the food room when my mom grabs my arm and swings me around. "Nubia, I have two more entries for you to read before you go slamming down doors and killing these people. I mean you will be doing that but I want you to read these next two entries. Because this wasn't the only time they have met and this isn't the only time they have hidden you from Nell. I wouldn't have even known or have been told about your existence or who knows if you were even meant to be created this time around. A couple of times. And let alone you have the same name over and over through time but now I'm wondering how much are we in the dark and maybe you can figure out these entries and possibly get them to tell you more than what these do. I also want to know how the fuck they knew the years you were going to be born and how many times they hid you before this year when they obviously didn't know you existed or maybe they did and that's why they were able to track you down. I need to know when you first ran into all your friends. But first please read these entries. Maybe you can shine a little light on what I'm reading or maybe I'm wrong and the person being mentioned is completely wrong." Mom says as she hands me two journals that are marked. The first is labeled her soul has touched earth and the other says she can't survive.