My bliss

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On wedding day~

I stand in front of the mirror, clad in my heavy bridal attire, surrounded by all my cousins and other ladies.
I feel nothing but irritation hearing all these giggles and teasing from the ladies.
''Ahira, smile a little or else jiju will run away seeing your serious face,'' one of my cousin said, laughing.
I sigh, just wanting this wedding to finish as soon as possible.

"You all ,Stop teasing my daughter" I heard mom saying while entering the room with Kavita Aunty.
"But chachi ,look at Ahira di it's her wedding and she is not even excited" I scoff when one of my cousin complain grumbly to mom. What's their problem?
"She must be nervous guys"Kavita aunty said with a smile.As always kavita aunty took my side.She is our close family friend,I have seen her since my childhood.we also used to be neighbours.Her husband, Abhiraj Mehra is dad's bestest friend.They are close to us more than our relatives.

"You all go outside and help in preparation"mom said and shooed away all my cousins.They all walked out.
"You are looking so pretty beta"Kavita aunty said with a smile.
"Akhirkar beti kiski hai"before i can answer mom playfully stated and they both started laughing.A smile tug on my lips seeing them.

{Whose daughter is she,after all}

"Thankyou aunty,How are you?" I asked with a small smile."I'm good beta,come sit here"She said as they both settled on the bed.I walked towards them carefully,not wanting to fall down because of my dress.
As i sat down mom took my hands and placed kisses on my palms.I smile seeing her gesture.
"Nazar na lage kisiki" mom said caressing my cheek.

{May no one cast an evil eye on you}

Suddenly my phone rings and I excuse myself and walked a bit away to talk.

It was from my secretary, Abhimaan ''hmm,yeah postpone it for tomorrow''I said through call and hang up before saying okay.I sigh and massage my forehead.
I had to postpone the meeting with Sharma's.This wedding is getting on my nerves now.

Calm down Ahira,just be a obedient daughter.

''Kavita,where is shashank?I have not seen him in any of the functions''I heard mom asking Kavita aunty.
I tensed up hearing his name and my hold tightens on my phone.

''oh Saroj abh kya hi batau mai,this boy never listen to me.He went on a trip with his friends without informing me and I didn't get to inform him about Ahira's wedding because of all this''I heard Kavita aunty complaining to mom.

[oh Saroj what should I tell now]

''I love it when Shashank gets on your nerves kavita''mom said with a laugh and kavita aunty just shook her head.

A wave of guilt washed over me remembering my past actions.I shook my head getting rid of that certain memory.

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I stand with a empty heart in front of Mahavar's mansion which is decorated with all kinds of lights and flowers looking magnificent as ever.
I can't avoid coming here,I fucking can't.
I tried avoiding but my sister and brother-in-law forcefully made me come here and I already made so many excuses for not attaining the haldi and mehendi ceremony.
Now i left with no other option but to come here.Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder,it was jiju.

''it's okay man,there still so many fish in the ocean''he joked to lighten up my mood but upon seeing my blank expression,he just withdraw his hand.
They both know about my endearment for Ahira.I don't know since when and how but they know it very well.

''Shall we go inside?''I heard Vishakha di as we all pass through the gate of Mahavar's mansion.
There are no guest except some close relatives and workers who are decorating the area as there is still so many hours left for the wedding to start.

Just thinking about the wedding makes my heart clench so painfully.

I should just forget about-

Both my thoughts and steps halt seeing a decorated Mandap.[wedding alter].
My hands automatically clench making my knuckles almost turn white.This is where she will become someone's wife,not mine.This is where she will take vows with another man,not with me.
These thoughts alone are making me go crazy.

I can't just forget about her.I can't

With that I dash out from there like a pathetic bastard.

Hii Daisies,

What do you think why is Ahira feeling guilty?And most importantly what past actions or memory is she talking about?