When the Camera Stopped Rolling

Chapter 5

Next day I woke you to see Ravi no moreY on the bed beside me. I get dressed immediately and walk out of the room to see him reading the newspaper. He probably heard my footsteps so he turned towards me and smiled. "How did you sleep last night, kitten?" He asks.

"Good, thank you. What about you?" I ask sitting beside him on the couch. He places the newspaper beside him, and pulls me closer.

"It was hard." He replies. I looked at him in confusion. Did I snore? He looks at me with amusement before continuing, "You were named beside me. Do you really think I'll be calm about it. No man would be immune to that." He chuckles at the last part.

I looked away and blushed. He grabs my chin and kisses me passionately. And I kissed him back. "Kitten, tell me something?" He asks in a husky voice.

"What?" I asked.

"Do you actually not like these? Being pushed to your limit by me." He asks as he nibbles my ears.

"I...I like it." I finally say it, giving into the sensation.

"Then why did you get scared last night, huh?" He asks while biting my jawline.

"It's because.... I... I've never done anything like that before." I moaned. "It's against all the morals I grew up with. But it's thrilling."

Ravi kisses me again with equal passion. "How did a saint like you ended up in here, kitten?" He whispered. "How would you like it if I'd have fucked you right now?" He asks.

My eyes widened for a second. Then I replied, "I'll prefer in your bedroom...."

He laughs beautifully and kisses my forehead, "Such an innocent soul." He says before standing up. Then lights up a cigarette and turn towards me, "Since it's my birthday I'm thinking of going for a vacation tomorrow for a week. Would you like to join me?" He asks.

"I would have loved to, but I have work." I say feeling guilty.

"Don't worry about it, kitten. No-one would say you anything if they know you are with me. And that I like you." He smirks.

"I don't want to do that...if we could go next week, then I'll be able to manage something " I say.

Ravi thinks for a few seconds then says, "Alright. Next week make sure you are free." He agrees. I nodded.

After a while of talking I look at my watch to see it's already 10, and time for me to leave. "Ravi can Ballav drop me to my apartment. I need to get going?" I asked

Ravi nodded and ordered Ballav to drop me off. Before I could leave he pulls me in his arms and kisses me softly, "See you later, kitten." With that he turns around and walks inside the house.

It's been two days since that, currently I am in shoot, another dance number. When I was 10, my father could finally afford a TV. I used to watch movies all day on it, to the point I almost failed my boards.

"And action!" The director yells. I start doing my steps as the music played in the background. The camera revolved around me as I spun. It was classical number. The music ends and the director yells, "Cut! Great job Mira!" I just smirked and bowed dramatically.

I went to my vanity van with to see the door is unlocked, and Ravi's bouncer standing in front of it. He's here. Ravi's bouncer looks at me sympathetically and nods. I have no idea why. I get inside to see Ravi smoking a cigar.

"Hello, kitten." He says menacingly. I look at his hands to a newspaper with the my picture for the Lux commercial. "I didn't know you were doing these cheap, degrading commercials nowadays. Are you tight on money right now?" He asks as he pulls me on his lap, and I shook violently.

"It's just an ad, Mr. Rawal." I say, as my voice shook. Ravi caresses my cheeks, as he's eyes travels down my body.

"Kitten let me tell you one thing, if I see another commercial like this with your face on it, I make you sure you regret it in the worst possible way." He threatens.

"You don't own me, Mr. Rawal. Let's be clear about that, we both are using each other for our own benefits." I say, carefully.

His eyes darkened instantly, grab me by my neck and chokes me. "Kitten, think before about what you say next time. And I have made myself extremely clear before that I don't like to share. I don't even want to show others what belongs to me. So as long as you want to stay...."

Suddenly the door burst opens the Shalini comes in, "Mr. Rawal, please let her go." She requests. Ravi looks at her and releases me, then walks towards her looking down at her. I can guarantee that Shalini wanted to run for her life but couldn't because of me.

"And who are you?" He asks crouching a bit to her level and staring at her soul. Shalini looks at me over his shoulder and I mouth her to leave. She shakes her and locks the door.

"I'm her manager, Shalini Bagchi. I was the one who forced her to do the commercial. She hates doing commercials anyways. I had to do it for publicity." She says as her voice shook. "I know you must think it's a lame reason, but that's how it is in the industry. She did what she had to." She finishes while looking down at her shoes.

Ravi nods and takes a step back, "You want publicity right? Tell the media that me and Mira are dating. Tell them we'll be going on a long vacation together. It'll get you enough publicity." He says, while I look at him in surprise. When did we decide this? He looks at me once then turns to Shalini again, "If you force her to do such commercials again I'll kill you and your family, Ms. Bagchi. Alright?" Shalini nods slowly as she shivered. "Good, now get out." With that Shalini leaves. And I am hundred percent sure that she had tears in her eyes. Poor girl.

He locks the door again and turn around. I finally ask him, "We are not dating, Mr Rawal. Why did you say that?"

He walks towards me and turns me around then pushed me against the wall. "You'll do exactly what I say from now on, kitten. You made a deal with the devil himself when you showed up in my office." He says, as he unties my ghagra and unhooks my blouse.

I internally cursed as tears ran down my cheeks. Not again, not again! He reaches between my legs and starts rubbing me over my underwear. But for the reason I could get out of his grip is because my legs were frozen in fear. I keep sobbing as he keeps violating me over my underwear.

After a while when my underwear was soaked he pulls back and I fall on the floor. He picks me up and sits me down my chair and kisses my tears away. "Kitten, only I get to do this to you and you have no way out of it. And I don't care what that makes you think about me. Remember that." He says as. And I nod slowly, still shook from what just happened. He studies my face and says, "One of these days I might might take you. So be prepared mentally. Anything like that might happen from now on. Get used to it." He says as he walks towards the door. "And I'll see you next week for our little vacation." With that he leaves.

The moment he closes the door behind him, I take out a cigarette from my drawer and light it up. I didn't felt like crying anymore. What the fuck am I doing? Why am I so scared? Questions ki these clouded me mind. What is left of me?

That night I tried heroin for the first time and passed out on my bathroom floor. It was Shalini and my house maid who picked me up and took me to my bed. I remembered crying and apologizing to Shalini and my dead parents. I think also begged Shalini not to tell Ravi about it.
But the next morning when I woke up I found Shalini and Malika lying beside me, both were sleeping. And their cheeks were stained with tears. And that's when realisation hit me like a bus. My room was inevitable, but if they hangs with me like they do now, they'll end up just like me. And I won't let that happen.