devotion

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Two weeks later

Nyel's pov.

"Let's goo!" Everyone cheers as one of my homies downs a bottle of Hennessy. That's crazy. Ion fuck with liquor for real. Tastes nasty.

"Nyel you're next!" Jano points at me directing the attention to me, "hell nah." I immediately shake my head and they all laugh.

This party is cool. I used to go out a lot but the past few weeks I been in the crib with Val, just chilling.

Jano was starting to question where I be so I went out with him. I ain't tryna tell my homies that I been chilling alone with some dude. I'm cooking for him, opening doors for him, buying shit for him and I know how this may seem to them.

Over the past weeks I somewhat made up my mind about Val. The way he makes me feel is really weird, in a good way. I enjoy his presence so much.

I ain't gon make a move on him though because I don't want shit to get complicated between us. Relationships always ruin shit. I don't want to loose him. And I know he ain't tryna hide his relationship.

I check my phone when it vibrates and smile when I see who it is. He typed his phone number into my phone the other day so we could play iMessage games.

Shorty
I'm continuing the show without you
I'm sorry
I can't wait

Nyel❤️
That ain't coo at all

Shorty
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He has a wide smile on his face and he's holding a bag of popcorn into the camera. I wanna be with him right now.

Nyel❤️
You ain't sorry.

Shorty
You're right! I'm not!🥰

"Who got you smilin' like that?" Jano smacks my shoulder. "Mane move." I smack him much harder.

"Don't start no bullshit." Lee points at us. Jano and I be fighting for fun.

"Mane I'm ready to go to sleep." Jano speaks so I take his drunk ass upstairs to his room and make sure he's good.

Jano and Lee asked me to live here with them but I can't leave my mom so I declined that offer. But I do spend a lot of time here.

"Good night nigger." He mumbles, "good night." I say before leaving and shutting the door behind myself. I let Lee know that Jano is good and sleeping upstairs before telling him that I'm heading out.

I then drive home and make sure my mom takes all her pills, eats something and is in her bed, "good night ma." I whisper.

"Good night Nyel." She turns and gets comfortable. Before I leave, I turn off the TV that had been playing some old movie she was watching.

My heart rate increases and my palms get sweaty. I miss Val. I saw him yesterday but I still really miss him. We've seen eachother every day for the past couple of weeks.

I'm sure he ain't on them pills that much anymore because his skin isn't pale and his eyes are vibrant as hell.

"Nyel!" Val exclaims when he opens the door, a huge smile on his face. I smile back and walk in making sure to close the door behind me before I take off my shoes.

"You didn't miss a lot." He says, "nah fuck that. You shoulda waited." He laughs at that as we sit down on the couch. "You've been out all day. I was bored." He shrugs.

Val is one pretty ass nigga. Everytime I see him I just wanna hug him so tight. But the only time he has touched me, is to smack me or do my hair. We of course grace eachothers skin accidentally from time to time but that ain't enough.

I ain't even big on physical touch but it's different with Val. I just wanna hold him.

Fuck that. Ima just go for it and see how he acts. If he's uncomfortable then ima move away. I put my arm on the back of the couch behind him.

He looks at me before smiling and scooting closer to me. I guess he's comfortable.

He seems pretty relaxed as he's laying on my shoulder and I got my arm wrapped around him. I'm relaxed too.

"Can we go to the movies tomorrow. There's a new movie playing at 5pm?" He asks me with a yawn. "I gotta go see my mom tomorrow." I speak. He knows I see my mom a lot but that's really it. He don't know about the living situation or her being sick.

"Can I ask you something about her?" He asks me, "ion really like talkin' about her." I answer. "Okay." I can tell he ain't happy about that.

I try to force myself to share that part of myself with him but it's really hard. I know that the topic will make me sad. He's going to think I'm a bitch.

I loose my train of thought when he reaches up and gently runs his fingers trough my li' moustache.

"Sorry." He says and shows me the white piece of lint before throwing it somewhere on the floor. "You good." I didn't mind that at all.

"I just ain't expect you to touch me like that." I explain, "so you don't want me to touch you? It won't happen again." He says.

"Nah. You can touch me as much as you want shorty. We just ain't been this touchy so I didn't expect it." I explain further.

"Oh okay." He smiles and reaches up again to place his hand on my cheek. "You're so beautiful. I could look at you all day." I say softly as we stare into eachothers eyes.

"I've been told ima pretty ass crackhead." He says with a shrug. I chuckle because that's funny but then I get serious, "you been sober or you still on sum shit?" When he talks there's more life in his voice now so I'm pretty sure he's clean.

I think he's sober. Him cheesing and nodding his head proves my suspicion. I'm so happy I wrap my arms around his waist and hug him hella tight as he laughs.

He screeches and continues to laugh as I shake him around. Holding him is nice.

I calm down and look at him again. He looks at me too, "I just don't feel the need to take it. I have you now. I'm very happy." He speaks.

"Don't be sober for me. Do that for yourself shorty." I speak. "Does it really matter?" He asks, "hell yeah." I respond, "you can die. That shit would hurt alotta people Val." I speak.

"It wouldn't hurt anybody." He mumbles. When he looks away from me, I gently grab his face and tilt his head in my direction.

"Don't say shit like that." I speak, "sorry." He mumbles. He has a lot of work to do on himself. Self love is lacking but I got that. Ima fix that for him.

"I really like you." He wraps his arms around my neck and pulls me down on the couch with him. I try my best to not place my full weight on him but it's hard so I flip us around and he gets comfortable on top of me.

"I really like you too." I say.