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14

Mei's Pov

I myself don't know what I am saying, there is one thing I am sure about that is, my words came directly from my heart, I Don't regret saying it.

Maybe I fell in love with him the moment I was born, mom told me that I smiled first time seeing him, the person whom I saw right after my birth after opening my eyes was him.

When I was child I used to crave for his attention which he never gave, I was heartbroken the moment he gave me cold shoulder when I told him I was leaving.

I don't know when it was, but I know that I was always in love with him, I just never accepted it. Even in New York, there wasn't a single day that went without thinking about him.

I remember when I got jealous seeing him with Kerry.

Something dark with a mixture of softness flicker into his eyes."What did you just said? Repeat that",his hold on my waist tightened securely.

I lift my chin.

"I love you Kim Taesin, now don't ask me about the exact moment because I myself don't know it, i realized it when i saw you with that woman",I sniff with a pout.

His lips curl up in a soft smile, wait....he is smiling? Full smile? His eyes spark with something so pure."I was so jealous, she was so close to you, how can you let her-",He joined our forehead before snatching my breath.

His lips mold onto mine like they were made for me, I shut my eyes to feel his touch, his lips on me as if it is the last time I will feel it.

He pull away and whisper on my mouth.

"I love you too Mi Reina",tears roll down my eyes."And I know that exact moment I fell",he kiss my cheeks softly again and again, I can inhale his scent, I try to hold back my shiver before I speak again.

"When was it?",my voice come out hoarsy.

"The moment you were born, the moment you opened your pretty little blue eyes for the first time and held my hand with you small finger, the moment you smiled up at me instead of crying. The moment you started to grew up, the moment you put effort to talk to me. Every moment of your life is the moment I fell in love with you but more and more",he stop right above my earlobe and kiss it as well.

Shit!

He loved me all the time and I was not able to find out? I thought he hated me.

"But I thought you hated me",he stare at me and something flash into his eyes before it vanishes.

"I never hated you Mei, never. You were my little queen, my pride, my first and last love and how can I hate it?",he shake his head, his hold tightens securely around me.

"Then why?",my voice broke.

"Why did you do that to me? You made me believe that I was disgusting, because of this I cried everyday, i felt suffocated, I used hide it from everyone! I was even bullied because of it, as you were popular and they wanted your attention, i was a kid Sin!",I sob recalling the Miserable State Of life I went through.

"I'm sorry, my baby, I'm sorry, I know it's all because of me, I made sure they never bully you again but you were gone, far away from me. Mi Reina, I never wanted to become your nightmare, never, you get it? I couldn't understand how to overcome this feeling, I know what we have between us is forbidden, still I want it, want you. I was trying to avoid you so that I could vanish the feeling in me for you, but they never washed away",he make me look into his eyes, eyes that are holding so many emotions, and these emotions are naked, for the first time, I am able to read them.

"Do you even know how I felt knowing that you are gone? I was shattered Mei, I thought I lost you, my heart was broken for the first time, it was like I have forget how to breath, you were my only reason to wake up every morning knowing that I will not be lonely or bored, I have you, but you....you were also gone. I fucking lost it and went to airport, you were gone, Mom and dad found me there and take me back home. I told them everything, they said they already know and it is not good for both of us. They tried many times, to make me forget about you but failed, seeing them worried made me feel like a bad son, so I pretended to be okay, they thought I moved on but no Mei, I can never move on",his words penetrated my heart inch by inch, there is not only me who was living in pain.

Moreover, my pain is nothing compared to his, I atleast had someone by my side to cry but Taesin, he never showed his weak side to anyone, always kept everything to him. I can't even imagine what he's gone through alone.

"I...I'm so sorry Sin, I had no idea that you loved me so much or I could've never leave",I pull him into a tight hug, he sigh with his face on my shoulder." Don't be sorry baby, now we are together, that's all I want",I hum feeling his warmth.

I pull away.

"What?".

"What will we tell mom, dad and your parents? They will never accept this",I point my finger between us.

"Don't worry, I know what to do",he wink, I raised my brow suspiciously and break into laughter. I lean on him and shut my eyes. We both stayed like this, feeling eachother.

I hope everything goes well.