Broken Ties (EN)

(1) Pleasure I'm Roxy

July 2, 2024

Dear Diary, I don't know how I have the patience to write here at this age. I know that one day I'm going to reread my experiences and adventures, and I'm going to feel nostalgic... that's good, I like to mark my day-to-day life on paper so that later I can laugh and cry about the past.

I don't know where to start, but here goes.

My name's Roxy, but my full name is Roxane Sophia Pure.

I'm about to start my academic studies in Digital Arts in a new city, and I'm not long before I set off on an adventure in Oxford.

Digital Arts, Fine Art at the college called Christ Church to be more exact, because I believe that during these years of study I will gain theoretical and practical skills for the production of artistic projects that integrate image, sound, movement and interactivity, using various media and supports, such as photography, animation, cinema, video games and virtual and augmented reality.

I see myself being an art director in the future, leading a team. Having my own studio and employees.

It's going to be a big 360º change in my life, but here goes! The hardest part is leaving my friends and family behind.

Not to mention that I'll miss everything, that moment when I watch the sunset from my balcony and Pumpkin, my orange Persian cat. My aunts' home-cooked meals and Sunday lunches with the family are perhaps the things I'll miss the most.

I'm taking a bit of London with me, my bestie Anna, who shares the same neurons as me, is coming with me. We have the same metal sanity together, but with their differences. She's laid-back... for her everything is always calm, she has that hippy vibe that always makes you feel calm and good about yourself. Her personality means that she sometimes forgets her responsibilities, making her a distracted person and sometimes a slacker when it comes to studying.

Physically, you could say that she's the oil and I'm the water, we're really very different, I would never dye my hair dark blue with light blue highlights. Just as I would never wear ripped shorts and oversized t-shirts.

I'm very different from her, but that's why we complete each other.

I'm 17 years old, I have straight brown hair, brown eyes, I'm a brunette and I wear something I hate, glasses. I'm short, I'm just over five feet tall, and I'm not overweight at all. I've tried a few diets, such as intermittent fasting, but I've decided to give that up and go for a few walks and I don't overdo fast food.

I'm the typical beta for dresses and skirts and a book and tvshows ... I'm a nerd. My favorite styles of books are fantasy and romance. As for tvshows, I'm passionate about fantasy, thriller and drama.

I have a different personality, I consider myself a ticking time bomb. I'm friendly and affectionate only to those I want to be with. I deal with problems by simply observing. I'm not impulsive, but when someone messes with someone I like, the countdown starts, and this bomb of mine could explode.

Tomorrow I leave this beautiful city, London, and head off into the unknown. Oxford ... my anxiety grows at the thought of having to create new routines. I hope I'll always be with Anna and that she'll never get away from me. I'm so afraid of feeling lost and that she'll abandon me with all the new friends she'll make.

Well Roxy, you have to be positive and let go of the bad thoughts, because Anna is like a sister, she grew up across the street from you.

My suitcases are packed, I think three is enough for a year. I've got one suitcase just for mid-season clothes... sleeveless sweaters and warm, flowery dresses, another with toiletries, another with food (I wouldn't leave home without food - a Taurean's needs).

I'm going on a five-year course but I come home every Christmas. I'm still getting my head around the fact that I'm going to be away from my family for so long, but the good thing is that there's whatsapp that allows you to make video calls.

The university we're going to is the oldest in the city, it's called Oxford University, it could have a nicer name but it is what it is.

Anna's going into Sports Science, I can't understand how she likes running, swimming, gymnastics, doing those super energetic things that make your body feel like it's been intensively beaten for days? I'm so clumsy that I can't even do a forward somersault, when I run my feet change and when I swim, I don't swim... I'm like a nail, if I fall into the water I go under.

I don't like change at all, but what's the point of getting used to it if I want to be successful in life?

I could spend a lot of words describing what my life is like, but this is enough to give you an idea of everything that's happening in my life at the moment. Diary, tomorrow when I write here I'll be sitting on a new bed. Kiss Roxy.