Tainted Wings

T-W-E-N-T-Y

At heart I'm a coward. I left Alystairs room as soon as he fell asleep. I looked at him one last time, this is the last time i'll see him like this.

I could still feel his lips on mine as i walked to class, his fingers on my back, the way he breathed into my neck. I planned on forgetting it happened. It was better for the both of us. It was just a wish of the moment, one that long passed.

The class stopped their commotion as soon as i walked in. Their eyes trained on me like hawks but i could only see Alystair. He looked the same as always, his scowl made me question if i even went to his room last night. His hair laid loosely against his sculpted face, there is not a single angle he looked bad at. Feelings of dread surfaced as soon as i saw him. I don't want a repeat of my past, he didn't deserve it. Alyss nodded his head at me and i returned the gesture. I took a seat next to Jessica and opened my book. Time passed awfully slowly in math save for jess running her mouth.

"Romen?" I chuckled when she gave me fake puppy dog eyes. I raised my eyebrow at her to continue. "There's a party tomorrow do you wanna come?"

"Why not?" I smirked at her. A little party never hurt anyone, besides I'm itching for one right now. She turned around squealing the news to her friends before getting back to her workbook. The buzz and euphoria of alcohol felt like I transcended to the heavens. Everything felt heightened and just for a night i never had to deal with this world or any of my own actions. I drink until i have no recollection of what i did.

When class ended i made my way over to the cafeteria to Zara and Zainab. We sat at our usual table at the cafeteria, our time consumed by Zainab's ranting. "Can you actually believe she paired me with Jason? Jason of all people?!" I've never seen someone so bothered by a group project in all my years of living. We laughed at her outbursts but got interrupted just as Alystsair slumped in the chair furthest away from all of us. He caught my gaze and held it there. His eyes revealed nothing, i had no way of knowing what went on in his head.

"Did we miss something or?" Zora interrupted. The girls smirked at each other and chuckled.

"stop assuming things." Alystair answered with an edge of anger to his words. I quirked my eyebrow, "what crawled up your ass?" He stared at me with those eyes like i should know.

I did know. I should have never kissed Alystair. That much i knew, seeing the hatred and regret swirling in his eyes stung for a reason that's even unknown to me. I wish it were an illusion. I sighed and dropped my head up to look at the ceiling. I think that was better than the reminder that constantly laid in his eyes.

The table went silent before Zora and Zainab's chairs squeaked against the floor. "Well we're gonna go." They slowly made their way backwards. "Yeah we have a umm," Zainab nudged Zora for an answer, "a project!" She filled in for Zainab. I scoffed, they didn't even have any classes together.

"Are you ready to speak now alyss?" I mocked him.

Before he could respond i spoke the words that were brewing in both our minds. "Last night never happened, it was just a spur of the moment, i can see the wheels in your head spinning so don't fret about it." I shrugged.

"I agree with you for once, besides you're a whore." I chuckled, that's the alyss i know. The one who doesn't care for anyone's feelings. Not the one from last night, the one who intimately traced my scars as if they were his. Not the one who held me back even when all i craved was running away. It's best if i forget about it, bury the feeling of everything i felt last night, and besides its not like alystair felt anything about it, he carried on with his day like nothing even happened. Deep down some part of me wished he had.

"I'm a whore alyss?" I smirked and moved to the chair next to him. "Don't try that with me of course you're a whore and that's putting it lightly." He made no indication of moving away. I was met with a look of boredom when I pulled his chair towards mine. "I'm your whore."

"how anyone ever fell for you is beyond me, all you do is play people." He crossed his arms as he spoke. "Not everyone alyss." The truth. I stared intensely at him and for once he returned it. No one existed outside of us. I hope he found the truth buried in my eyes. "Well i suppose it's a shame then." No humour laid in his words. "Mmh." I murmured.

The bell rung and broke us out of our trance. Before alystair walked away i called him back. "I take it you're not coming to the party today." I stated. He quirked his eyebrow, "Why would i do that Romen?" I shrugged and his eyebrow quirked further up. "No please Alystair come to the party I'll do anything you want, you've gone soft." He smirked. I scoffed. "Come, dont come its up to you." Please come

A/N
THE NEXT SCENE IS THE PARTY IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU ALL TO READ IT!

I've been gone for long and I'm sorry:( FORGIVE ME but I'm still continuing with tainted wings I didn't discontinue it

I love you all Mwahh tell me your thoughts in the comments about this chapter

(We getting to my favourite part really soon ;)