september ☪

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So I'll sleep tonight.
And I'll dream of how we used to do stupid things at the back of the classroom. You never cared of what people thought. You were always so extravagant.

So I'll sleep tonight.
And I'll dream of your groggy morning voice at 6 am when you forced yourself to stay up after an all nighter with your best friend who i never really liked but you could never bring yourself to stop bring friends with.

So I'll sleep tonight
And I'll remember the way you did certain things. Like the way you sipped your coffee. Or the way you talked about poetry like it was an extension in your brain. Which, after so long, i think it started to become one.

So I'll sleep tonight
And I'll remember the day you told me i wasnt worth it. And I'll remember how much it hurt. Because even though time healed the fucking wound you stapled into my lung, the pain will always stay the same.

So I'll sleep tonight
And I'll dream of how much i miss you.

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IMPORTANT AUTHORS NOTE:
I wrote this a year ago c:
I love it.
Oh. But um. Ive lost a total of 5 people in 3 months. Most to suicide.
You guys ;-; if you or someone you know is having thoughts of suicide please tell someone. I knew this people from last year. We weren't close anymore. But i still knew them. And im still very, very sad because of this. Also, i wrote a chapter on suicide in my book This Ones For You and I'll be doing a part 2 today. It will be on what to do if someone you know is having thoughts. Guys please tell someone. You dont understand how much this fucking kills people until its too late. With that being said, i am here for absolutely anyone. I dont care if its 2am. I. Am. Here. For. You. Dont be afraid to measage me please. I swear im here for you guys. I love you guys so much ❤
Rest In Paradise
Stay Rad ✌

[Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255]

Your guys lives matter to me. Please. Btw sorry the a/n is so long