Aap Koun Hai? PT 1

A Clear up

Why was he acting like it was that simple?That he could ask me out at random and not expect confusion. There was a buzz whirring around the school as people huddled near us to see and I still haven't been on terms with what just happened.

In Fact I barely moved from my spot. My mind is a whirlpool, spinning with confusion, questions and shock. The world shakes around me and my belly somersaults in return. I could see the silhouettes of the students around, but even that was a blurry image.

My feet feel light and blood seems to rush from my arms. My chest jumps up and down. I am panicking. Why did this happen? What does he want? What will Mr.Leela say? Would he want me to accept it?

Did I make a mistake?

I tremble back, my brows furrowing.

Vihaan seems to notice my condition, but before he can do anything, Amara runs to me.

"Payal" she shouts, reaching for me, and turns me around . I don't know about the crowd but , the entire table snaps their head to her.

She holds my shoulders tight, pressing in skin, and stiffening my body, forcing me to look at her.
"Are you alright?" She asks, meeting my droopy eyes. I step back from her grasp, forcing myself straight, blinking my eyes wide.

I already feel like a shitty friend for not telling her what I was doing .
I don't know if everyone is staring at me pitily and I don't want to know if they are. Instead I look at Amara I say. "I am good, I am good, just a little shocked."

She scrunches her eyes, but I turn back to the table to see Vihaan  fervently reading his book-holding it upside down, while mostly everyone else scrolls on their phone again. Kairav on the other hand stares at Amara, who tries her best not to notice.

Why is he doing this? I wonder, my gaze digging into Vihaan. What good will dating me bring?

He peeps over from his book, he knew I was watching him. "Aren't you going to leave?"

I step away, and as Amara and I march back, the crowd disperses, but whispers still spurr.

"Why did you go there?" She asks with a sigh,as we walk down the cobblestone pathway on the way to our bench. The sun browbeating us to quicken our pace.

"He-he was asking me to come-Vihaan" I quickly made up. But my mind is restless to pretend, the same questions repeating in my mind. Why is he doing this?

She huffs "You know how they are right? They will ask you stupid questions and embarrass you like that"

I lurch before the bench , but she continues to walk and sit. To embarrass me? I think.

I furrow my face "Are you-are you saying it was a prank?"

A part of my chest slowly cracks and breaks off, crashing to my feet

She crosses her legs and blinks at me, an an uncomfortable expression dawning in her eyes

"Well I mean...he doesn't really like you...After what you did. And I know you won't really say yes to something like that. You won't leave me like that for them."

She breaks into a smile. "Anyway you won't need to , now that Mr.Leela has freed you"

I only half smile, the weight of guilt weighing me down like an anchor in the sea.

"Right" I exhale and sit next to her. So how am I going to ask him to actually date me now?

But the burden of questions and guilt torment me too much to care

How long will I hide this from Amara? Is this really a prank or was he serious? If it's the first then what am I going to do? If it's the later what is his reason to date me?