The Story Of My Life

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

The change

"I Hate Waking Up", June was the beginning of my summer vacations and for the first week.... I just wanted to sleep. Being awake was tiring. I had no chemistry tuition during that time but fortunately this wasn't the case with mathematics tuition. Our mathematics teacher, whom we will call Peka, was an awesome teacher. He arranged me in Raeliana's batch, and I am thankful to him for that. It was really fun arriving early and talk about things., We didn't talk much but you know...I will always listen you talk even if you have no words to offer.

However not everything is sunshine as, I wasn't able to give much time to my friends and I am sorry about that. I am damn sure that what I did will affect future and maybe it already did but still, saying sorry feels good.

"As my life moves forward, it's becoming difficult just being a writer because it feels like it's been some time since I have interfered in it. So, starting today, I will not just survive or write but rather live my life" ...or so I thought. Someday around 12 June...well I crashed my vehicle into the tree. I was a well. Little injured however Raeliana was furious I don't know why though. She scolded me which was understandable as you get angry on people that you care about, so it was ok.

With half of summer vacations over, I had to start doing my summer homework. I am glad that Raeliana helped me. She provided me work of mathematics, physics and many else.

As days were passing, another month was coming to a closure which meant that another time I will have to go in that hellhole or maybe not a hellhole anymore, as this time I was happy because going to school meant that I will get to see Raeliana which made me happy. However, this happiness scared me because just like the pain of self-harm, happiness can also be addicting. And that's scary because unlike that pain, my happiness can't be controlled by me and can disappear anytime. But someone told me that being scared is human nature...... So, it is kind of good for me to be scared as it makes me human.

July, it meant beginning of new term......going to school again and meeting Ved and others but the dark side was that I had to get another haircut thanks to that bitc-, I mean our coordinator. Well, it was all bearable as long as I am getting to see Raeliana.

July, it was the hottest month of the year for sure. There was all this heat but still could not melt her heart or it did? all I can say is it was filled with surprises like Bakaneko changing stream or Xoe-sick, being constantly sick but the biggest surprise was given to me on 11th July. It was me knowing the name of that one girl who had a crush on me, and it was well...I will tell that in some other story...Hehe.

I know that my writing style have changed which will surely cost me some readers but as I have said before...." THIS STORY IS JUST FOR A SINGLE READER" ......... anyways, the reason, "for this is also probably because these days I have been happy and the best way to reveal about someone's health is to see their writings. I know that I was the one who said that" I decided not to include festivals like Dussehra and Halloween in my tale. Why? Because those were happy times, and I don't want to mix in any lies here. Sometimes, kindness can feel like a lie, and I want to keep things real with you. I believe that honesty, even in stories, is important.", however recently I have realized the fact that change is the only constant.

27th July, the day I won't forget even if I wanted.... Because it was the day, we gave our first serious exams of class 11th and it was well...devastating I only passed, and it was hard... very hard in fact. Can't say the same about mathematics though as it went by pretty smoothly. 30 July 2024, my paper of fine arts went by smoothly, which was a surprise given that i prepared it all in just 32 minutes.

Today is 31st July and I have chemistry exam tomorrow and I am sleepy as hell but i am scared about tomorrow because its 3rd of PCM and Physics didn't go as I expected it so i don't know what to expect of it.... So now I am here thinking that "No, I don't want to fall asleep. I hate it"